Today is the first day that I will be typing my daily feelings and journeys. I’m not much of a talker in person, I don’t really share nor show my feelings. I mainly keep everything inside and act as if there is nothing wrong with me, or that there is nothing bothering me. But…truth is, I have a lot on my mind and a lot going on in m own little world. I have been dealing with depression for the longest time now…it feels like it never goes away. It also doesn’t help that I’m scared to share my feelings with anyone, no matter who it may be. I have a boy friend and even then it’s hard for me to share with him about how I’m feeling. Sometimes I just don’t feel like I exist or I shouldn’t exist. What’s the difference between living and existing anyway?