Hey everyone

Let me start off by saying I’m not the greatest at writing but I have so many thoughts and feelings that I can not express with people in my life because it simply would cause to much drama and I don’t need that. I think this public journal will be good for me because I will be able to truly express myself and hopefully get some feedback.

Let me introduce myself a little, I’m a 39 year old, stay at home mom of 6 kids, 5 of which still currently reside with me. My mother and my 17 year old sons girlfriend have also recently moved in. I don’t work because truth be told between child support and government child tax I don’t really need to at this point. In the long run it also benefits my children to have a parent who is at home for them. 

So I guess as first entry I’d like to talk about my great aunts 90th birthday party I went to yesterday. I didn’t know any of these people but I decided to go because how am I to ever know them if I don’t go to meet them. So the party was from 1-4 and out of town. I hitched a ride with my uncle because I don’t have a license, never have. He shows up at 10:30 and it’s only an hours drive. This is something he always does, he always shows up way to early.  So of course we show up at this birthday party way too early, a bit embarrassing, everyone was really kind and inviting, everyone is also wearing a name tag, what a great idea. My cousin Colette showed up as well and she brought her loser husband and he’s disgustingly dirty, this guy doesn’t shower for months, this is not an exaggeration. They are supposed to be seperated but it’s pretty clear they are still together, my personal opinion is that it’s a welfare scam so she can get more money. My cousin is not much better, her clothes are clean but they are all holy and she’s wearing sandles and her feet are extremely dirty. And of course their son that is with them is also grossly dirty. This is embarrassing, at this point I just wanna leave. There is no excuse for the way they look. 

I feel the need to explain the relationship between my cousin, her husband and myself, let me start off by saying her husband,  is my ex husbands brother. Yes I know it sounds odd. When I was living with my husband my cousin came to live with me when she first left home. She was introduced to my brother in law and they eventually married. Anyways so her husband is my x brother in law and he hates me because his brother is court ordered to pay me child support and in his eyes, his brother shouldn’t have to help with the kids what so ever because I left the relationship. I had a falling out with my cousin a while back because of things she did and just how she is as a person. She’s essentially a back stabbing two faced little bitch and I choose not to have her in my life. I will explain in a future post what exactly happened there and you guys will completely understand why I choose to have nothing to do with her.

So back on the topic of the birthday party, my cousin knows quite clearly I don’t want her talking to me what so ever and she keeps trying to insert herself in conversation that I am having with someone else. I’m quite rudely ignoring anything she has to say in hopes she’ll get the hint and just go talk elsewhere but of course she doesn’t. I’m not one to cause a scene so whatever. After cake is served I get instant heartburn. Something about chocolate just does not agree with me. Anyways I told my aunt about the heartburn and my cousin pipes up and says oh you got heartburn and she starts reaching into her purse looking for her anti acid and I say to her, don’t bother I don’t want anything from you. Finally she gets the hint and stops trying. I know she’s trying to befriend me again but truth be told I don’t want to have anything to do with her and I probably never will. I see her as a diseased little cunt and I truly believe I will never be able to forgive her. 

So yeah the birthday party went as such. Might I add it was really freaken hot outside and I was more than happy to return home to my air conditioned house 🙂

I was hoping my oldest daughter would stop by yesterday evening, she’s teaching me how to play Magic the gathering. I’m getting the game concept, it’s just getting to know what each card does and how to play them together now. It’s probably best she didn’t show up because I fell asleep on the couch around 6 and didn’t wake up until 7 this morning. I didn’t get much sleep the prior night because I had my daughter and granddaughter spend the night and my granddaughter sleeps in my room when she comes over and she was wide awake at 5:30 and I had been playing magic with my daughter until about midnightish. 

Well I think this will be it for my first post, I really need to get some chores done before the kids come back from their fathers house and I have my brother arriving today all the way from Quebec. He’s been on the road for a week now. 

Thanks for listening,    


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