More Thought on Trusting God

Trusting God is not a hobby or a pastime.  It is the essence of how you approach life.  After I wrote the earlier journal I felt better already.  I am going to bed early so I can get up very early and go walking with my 92-year old Mom in the park.  We walked around the track 4 times this morning.  The humidity was low, and it was not too hot.  I love my Mom.  When I was little she went through a bitter divorce.  It was terrible.  I had nightmares for years and years.  My Mom had to go to work and my beautiful, kind grandmother raised me.  Mom was at work 6 days a week, then we had church on Sunday, never missed.  Then she was tired and slept in the afternoon.  I couldn’t understand about the divorce, because it wasn’t allowed to be talked about, and I never saw my dad until I was married.  I know it took a terrible toll on my Mom and made her for a while very bitter and unhappy.  Thank God for my grandmother who was so kind and also taught me piano!  Now my mom is older (much!) and she has mellowed wonderfully and she is always telling me she loves me and that I am so sweet and do things for her.  We are very close these days.  That is a gift from God.  I had to get over the wound in my heart.  And I did, with God’s help, and some counseling.  I am very thankful to have my mom still healthy and able to do things together with me.  Making up for lost time.  (Smile)

3 thoughts on “More Thought on Trusting God”

  1. What a wonderful mother you have. It’s difficult being a single parent and having to go to work and raise your child on your own. Sometimes you are so exhausted you don’t have any energy left at the end of the night to be there for your kids. Your mom worked hard to provide for you when you were young. She probably never wanted you to learn the details of why she got divorced from your dad. She kept that pain away from you.
    I’m glad that you have been able to have a loving relationship with her and that you are able to be with her as she gets older.

  2. What a great post, I have been checking your posts as I appreciate how you orient most of your entries to God. I have been having issues with my mom the past 10 years more or less, I am 32 she is 60 years old. She is supposed to be “divorced” from my dad but still live in the same house separate rooms. On and off it has been going, exhausting situation, it is hard as you mention to get over those wounds, sometimes I would have rather have them divorced when I was child. Thank you for your post and keep enjoying that relationship you have now with your mom.

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