Don’t know what to do

Today was all over the place. I was up and down big time. all i wanted to do was go home get into bed and cry, which is what i did when i finished work. how have i got to this point. Im not this kind of person I’m usually a happy positive person i hate what i have become. I wanted to die today, i actually wanted to die. I kept thinking that my friends and families lives would genuinely be better without me. how horrible is that to think that way about yourself. 

I feel like i have two personalities now,my normal self which i actually quite love. she regular me is great, she’s always up for adventure new things and smiles a lot and feels things so deeply and passionately. then there is the other new me who i despise as does my family and friends. especially my sister she said she hates what i have become. I need to find a way to get back to myself and push this depressed person out of my mind. How to do this is the big question though…

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  1. I know I am not in your position but I think you must pray and ask for His guidance. He will listen to you no matter what the situation is. If you really need a friend , just message me and I will try to help you in a simple way (i’m sorry for my english)

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