Where do you want to be?
I feel like this is a loaded question…I could answer this so many ways, Where do I physically want to be? Where do I emotionally want to be? Where do I financially want to be? I’m going to answer all of the above and then some…
I want to be anywhere but at work right now, I’d love to be back on the cruise soaking up the sun, day drinking and laughing all day with great friends. I’d love to be at the cape, sitting by the bay watching the waves crash while thinking about my life. For some reason I always leave there with clarity. I’d also like to be in NH, sitting on the front porch watching the water glistening while wrapped in a blanket. I have to admit I love sitting there when it rains too..there is something calming about the watching the rain pouring down on the water.
I emotionally want to be stable, I want to be okay with my loneliness. I want to be able to sit with my thoughts and not need a distraction. I have always been someone who needs a distraction, whether it be a man, a friend etc I have a very hard time being alone. I think it’s because I over analyze everything and when my world is quiet my mind races (probably contributes to my insomnia). I want to be at a place in my life where I don’t settle for half of people, I want to know I am a phenomenal woman and not be bothered with people who don’t see that. I want to be in a place where if someone doesn’t see my worth I don’t fight for them to, I can easily walk away and know that I am better than that and deserve more. I want to be able to be solid in my decisions and not second guess myself, I want to be at a place where I am at peace with myself. That is definitely my biggest struggle but I know I can get there.
I financially want to pay off my debt, I would like to build my credit back up (since the short sale because of divorce my credit took a dive and it is definitely stressful). I want to make more money, I want to make enough to live on my own for awhile, hopefully travel and see places. I want to enjoy being single, since I am now almost 30 and single I might as well enjoy life…I want to be able to go to Europe or California, maybe Iceland to see the northern lights. I want my life to have experiences.
Those are all goals that I hope are attainable within the next couple of years, they aren’t going to be easy but they would definitely be worth the struggle.
“The time will pass anyways, why not spend it doing the things you want instead of waking up one morning wishing you had”