I’m struggling today and it’s only 9:30am. I walked the dogs and John acted terrible. We saw at least 4 dogs and he went ape shit every time. Both dogs were pulling me a lot, too. Walk was fairly miserable.
One of my “friends” keeps sending me snap chats of the rest of them all out doing things together. This morning I responded with, “thanks for all the snaps of events that I was not invited to”. She sent back a mean smart ass message. Whatever. Those girls were never really my friends. I was only included to do things with them for a while, but they were not friends. I don’t have any friends. Now I don’t even have the pretend friends. No one wants to be around a depressed person. I have nothing positive to add so I am no longer welcome.
I am hurting so bad right now. I literally have no one in the entire world that gives a shit about me. I have no family. I have no friends. I have no one. Killing myself is on my mind right now. I don’t see the point in living. I have no one. I have reached a dead end. I don’t see any more options. I don’t see any way out. What is so wrong with me? why does everyone reject me?