tough morning

I’m struggling today and it’s only 9:30am. I walked the dogs and John acted terrible. We saw at least 4  dogs and he went ape shit every time. Both dogs were pulling me a lot, too. Walk was fairly miserable.

One of my “friends” keeps sending me snap chats of the rest of them all out doing things together. This morning I responded with, “thanks for all the snaps of events that I was not invited to”. She sent back a mean smart ass message. Whatever. Those girls were never really my friends. I was only included to do things with them for a while, but they were not friends. I don’t have any friends. Now I don’t even have the pretend friends. No one wants to be around a depressed person. I have nothing positive to add so I am no longer welcome. 

I am hurting so bad right now. I literally have no one in the entire world that gives a shit about me. I have no family. I have no friends. I have no one. Killing myself is on my mind right now. I don’t see the point in living. I have no one. I have reached a dead end. I don’t see any more options. I don’t see any way out. What is so wrong with me? why does everyone reject me? 

4 thoughts on “tough morning”

  1. I deleted Snap Chat from my phone. I just don’t understand why someone would send those to me? They don’t invite me then send me video of what I’m not invited to?? Rubbing it in my face or what? Very hurtful.

  2. You can be freed from your depression – did you know that? And keeping bad company doesnt make you bad. They are obviously not worth it. YOu are better off without them. Find positive company – you will end up being more positive yourself after a while. The right company will help you deal with your depression. Not nice – I have been there once

  3. Please don’t kill yourself, that is not a way out, things will only get worse even though it seems like it will solve things it won’t look at the bright side tomorrow is a new day with new activities, new achievements and a fresh start

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