To be honest, I think we both knew what we were doing, neither of us were black out drunk. It just happened, but it was bound to. We’ve had this tension for years on end. We were both finally old enough to do something about it. We both blamed the weed and alcohol and pills on multiple occasions. But he wasn’t fucked up half the time. He even asked me to do it sober. It happened and I can’t take it back. But i will always love him. Always. He’s just a really bad person right now. So distance is key.