Today I have had a lot on my mind. I texted him a few times today and we have had descent and sometimes funny conversations through text today, but it doesn’t make it any easier on how I feel about him. I miss him like crazy and realize that just being friends right now is the best because he doesn’t know what is going to happen with the legal issues that he is dealing with right now. I wish more than anything, I could make all of this go away, but I can’t. And that kills me cause I miss his touch so much. But I am just gonna do me cause that is the only thing that I can do. If I meet someone else then so be it. If I am still single when he gets done dealing with all his legal issues and he wants to see where things can go between us, then maybe the feeling will still be there.