I had a busy Saturday. I had practice , then went to the store, graded papers, went on a date, graded papers, went on another date. Actually, I suppose I liked it better to go on 2 dates on the same day. That left the whole day today free from dating hell. Both of the guys I went out with yesterday were very nice. I feel like I really hit it off with the second one. BUT, I still just want my husband back. That’s all i want. Why does he have to be such an asshole. Why does he refuse to even give me a chance. I feel like he’s making people hate me left and right, and I am not even with him. They hate him, so now they hate me, but I’m not even with him. He hates me, too. My friend’s husband would not even look at me yesterday. What the hell? There’s no telling what Brent has done to him, but why is he treating me bad for it. d
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."