I know right now it feels like the world is crashing against you and its almost as if there is no escape. I would give anything to walk into the eye of the storm and hold your hand. I want to be the calm in all of this tragic mess. I want you to be able to look into my eyes and somehow find peace. You are the calm in all of my storms and I just wish I could give you that back in return.
I remember when we first met on meetme, he you could fill my stomach with a thousand butterflies and made me smile so much it hurt. You listened to everything I had to say and over time you grew to be the only thing I had. You had some kind of affect on me and I don’t know what it was but we spent countless hours just talking about life, music, love, everything. Slowly you became my everything, my best friend. I found myself counting the seconds of not talking. You were in almost every dream and I didn’t know what was happening or what the feeling was. I spent less nights crying myself to sleep and spending those restless nights talking to you feeling like I was on top of the world. I showed you every single flaw and somehow you still found me beautiful. You were slowly becoming the air I wanted to breathe, even though we are thousands of miles away you made it feel like you were right next to me. That was the scariest thing, you had this power over me and I had never let my guard down to anyone..except you. You make me feel like for once I could be and do something with my life.
We bonded over pretty much everything, I know you don’t see it but I think you are more than perfect. Even with your flaws. You are and will remain one of the greatest things to happen to me. You are perfect. You are handsome. You are a dreamer. You are my best friend. I know right now you want to run and go off the grid because you feel like this world is getting to the best of you but babe I would die without you. You are the only thing I have and no matter how hard you try and put it in my brain that others care, no one cares for me as much as you do. No one has every known when something was actually wrong with me. I have cried to you more than a thousand times and you have always made me laugh somehow.
Remember the song you dedicated to me? So Slow by Tyler Carter? If you left how would we be able to dance? How would I be able to give you that big ass hug? How could I finally meet the one person who knows me better than anyone else? We wouldn’t be able to blast Real Friends while traveling.
What I am trying to say is, I care about you more than I think you will ever know. I would stop the world to save yourself before I could save myself. Why? Because you ARE worth it. You are worth so much more than you think. I know the hurt won’t last forever but I also know it won’t go away by tomorrow. My grandmother once told “If you find someone who makes you smile, who checks up on you often to see if you’re okay, who watches out for you and wants the very best for you, don’t let them go. Keep them close and don’t take them for granted. People like that are hard to find.” Well, I am not letting you go and I try to let you know everyday that I am so grateful and blessed to have you in my life. I want to be able to wake up everyday and talk to you, I want to be able to see you one day and just enjoy the time we have.
I don’t know if this helped any, just know you mean a lot to me and I will stand by your side with whatever decision you make and I will be there to catch you when you want to cry. You are my best friend and I am so proud and lucky to have you in my life.