I have decided to give writing in a journal a try. I am on a journey to find happiness within myself. I am 38 years old. About 6 months ago I was laid off from my job. I wasn’t happy there but it paid the bills. The moment that my boss let me go I felt so lost. What do I do now?? Unfortunately, I never finished college. Nor do I have the money to go back. Do I find another job in my field….another mindless job with mediocre pay? I chose not too. After 6 months of not working, I got hired as a school photographer. This job also blows. Crap money, crap hours. I literally maybe work 4 hours a day if I am lucky. I am banking on getting a job at the post office. That is were I want to work. I am so tired of being at home. All I do is laundry, clean, cook, and clean some more. I have been off the last 4 days…..you eventually run out of things to clean. I have spent this day moping around bored as hell while my children were at school. Fingers crossed that I get this new job….its awesome money. Which I so desperately need. I hate the feeling of paying bills late or not being able to run to the store whenever I need/want too. I told myself that during my unemployment I would work on loving myself. So far not much progress. I feel like after I had my child and took in my niece I completely put myself aside…..to the point where I don’t know who I am or what I like to do. How does one not have any hobbies???? Unless you count drinking wine and moping around a hobby.