First entry

I have decided to give writing in a journal a try.  I am on a journey to find happiness within myself.  I am 38 years old.  About 6 months ago I was laid off from my job.  I wasn’t happy there but it paid the bills.  The moment that my boss let me go I felt so lost.  What do I do now??  Unfortunately, I never finished college.  Nor do I have the money to go back.  Do I find another job in my field….another mindless job with mediocre pay?  I chose not too.  After 6 months of not working, I got hired as a school photographer.  This job also blows.  Crap money, crap hours.  I literally maybe work 4 hours a day if I am lucky.  I am banking on getting a job at the post office.  That is were I want to work. I am so tired of being at home.  All I do is laundry, clean, cook, and clean some more.  I have been off the last 4 days… eventually run out of things to clean. I have spent this day moping around bored as hell while my children were at school.  Fingers crossed that I get this new job….its awesome money.   Which I so desperately need.   I hate the feeling of paying bills late or not being able to run to the store whenever I need/want too.  I told myself that during my unemployment I would work on loving myself.  So far not much progress.  I feel like after I had my child and took in my niece I completely put myself aside… the point where I don’t know who I am or what I like to do.  How does one not have any hobbies????   Unless you count drinking wine and moping around a hobby. 

One thought on “First entry”

  1. Good luck on the Postal job! 🙂 I can totally understand not having hobbies. People ask me what I like to do in my spare time and I honestly don’t know what to tell them. I think you just get too busy with the kids in your life and put that stuff to the side. I’m on the same boat trying to find something to keep my mind not so idle. I started coloring, lol, but it’s something. 😉

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