I begin counselling today. I’m far from excited about it. I have no clue where to start with the counselor. I’ve been to counselors before with some decent results and some bad. I’m only going now because my family, esp my husband is making me feel absolutely feel crazy inside. I don’t want to feel this way. But I honestly don’t see how anything in my world can be fixed this time.
I seriously just need to be able to clear my mind so I can work. Work is my favorite distraction but lately, I can’t even focus there. My business is suffering from it. My husband is so clingy and needy as he is the one creating problems in the marriage. My teenager is difficult. My 2 oldest kids are addicts who can’t get their lives together. My 5yo is just little and needs attention like any other small child. My husband’s ex is just insanely hateful and I don’t even know why I care. I really only like the dog right now. He is quiet, and soft, and doesn’t argue or try to analyse me.
I should just run away from home and bring the fluffy dog with me. We can take naps all day under our bridge since we won’t be able to afford anything else. In between naps we can hold a sign at the intersection asking for donations. That’s my new dream life.