It has been a hard last couple of days. I think so often about journaling but never have the time or privacy to do it. And when I start to journal it is like I am sick of myself already. Actually I am sick of myself complaining but then continuing to do the same things over and over again…. It is 9pm. The clan has just left, about 15 minutes ago. Randy has been outside ever since. He is acting weird….. I guess you could say, distant. But then again I probably am too. Went to the bank today to talk to them about my accounts. I just got paid and my entire check was taken because of his back child support. All of that hard work, for nothing. I am too sleepy to d this right now.