Baking the Drama

So it’s been a looooong day.  The drama is just starting I just believe.  I don’t know if I can believe what Andre is telling me.  If he wants to just cool things over with his wife and cone back to me then.  Or is he just not trying to break my heart.  I always told him… I do not want him to lie to me,  I am the other woman. No need for lies. Lying is what got him into this mess. 

He thinks he can just “handle this”. I don’t think so this time. He always said he wanted to run away with me.  Start a new life. I knew he still very much in love with her. Which I am OK with! I just wish he could have just said that to me. I never wanted to have feelings,  and now there is. My feelings are on the line. 

I’d rather I get told the truth and not be strung along. I still want Andre in my life,  but I need him to tell me how.  If this is dead, I want to start relocating my feelings. Reverting them back to a friendship.  Start working back on my life. Get myself straight. But if we are gonna stay this so called “thing”, I need his complete honesty. 

I have my own life that is on the line here.  My own family.  I was never looking to ruin his,  just looking to make each other happy. He told me all kind of things,  and it’s all things I heard before.  It is only because I am treated like a queen I fell for it.  But I knew in the back of my head how he cowards to his wife he was still in love with her.  

I wasn’t leaving my home and I never wanted him to leave his.

#JulietRose @)—->—

Song of Feeling:

“Hardest Thing” 98 degrees

We both know that I shouldn’t be here
This is wrong
And baby it’s killing me, it’s killing you
Both of us tryin’ to be strong
I’ve got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I’ve made up my mind
There is no turning back
She’s been good to me
And she deserves better than that
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don’t love you
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can’t let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart’s not free
We’re not meant to be
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don’t love you
I know that we’ll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I’ve got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I’ll be sending
And you will never know
‘Cause there can be no happy ending
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don’t love you
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can’t let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart’s not free
We’re not meant to be
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don’t love you
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can’t stay
I’ve made up my mind
There is no turning back
She’s been good to me
And she deserves better than that
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don’t love you
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can’t let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart’s not free
We’re not meant to be
It’s the hardest thing I’ll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don’t love you

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