it’s been a while
i’m currently feeling the worst i have in a long time
i have no one to talk to. i don’t have anyone i can trust or rely on or anyone who cares right now. it hurts. it hurts so bad i want to die. i want to kill myself already so i wont have to be alone anymore
i’ve been talking in suicide chatrooms to try and feel not as alone
it helps a little but then i think what if these people think im overreacting? what if they think im making things up?
i’ve never felt more alone in my life. last time i felt this way i ended up in the hospital after overdosing.
i know how much i need to take to die.
its funny how little it takes to kill someone
i miss you a lot
youre the only person i believe loves me with all their heart
we havent spoken in so long and its so painful
i miss you so much
but we cant be together the way we want
i know im bad for wanting to see you but i dont care anymore
i dont have anything left
i dont even have you