Lust or not?

I have mentioned before that I don’t  know whether it is lust that I feel or something more throughout these six years. I saw him today and I know he saw me too. We stared at each our for a few moments and then he looked away and didn’t look back. I really want to see him all by myself. Have him outside alone; away from my family and his family. Just us two and I really want to talk to him. I don’t know what I would say. I know what I want to say or what I want to know and I can imagine it but things don’t go the way you imagine it. So I don’t know how it would turn out. I am seriously scared of what might happen. I don’t know what to do. Help? Anyone. 

2 thoughts on “Lust or not?”

  1. That he likes me. And even if he doesn’t at least at one time he did have feelings for me. That would at least make me feel better knowing that it’s not just one sided. I also want to know why did he do the things he did.

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