Lost. Down. I am feeling held back by myself which is making me feel even worse. I am super lazy and have a lack of motivation. I am feeling this way because I feel unproductive. I need a purpose in my life. I have a passion yet I am not persueing it. I don’t feel productive which makes me feel horrible about myself and lack of confidence but yeah I’m still lazy to do anything so it’s a never ending cycle of my torture of feeling awful. I’m trying to break free. But based on my personality I need someone else to keep me accountable and I am a little lost because I haven’t found that. It’s so sad to not be self motivated! This sounds really depressing but I am just sharing. Ultimately I find my hope in God. This is just a nice way to record and reflect emotions.