I have been in love with only 1 person and we have known each other for over 15 years now. We started dating back in 2002 when he was in the marines. We were together for about 4 years on and off. Then I listened to my mom about moving to Florida and I left. My heart has always been with him no matter where I was. When he got out of the marines he was very distant and had extreme ptsd and had some things he needed to work through. In 2007 I moved back to my hometown and tried to rekindle what we had but he just stopped talking to me all of a sudden. In April of 2015 I had just started dating someone when one night I got a Facebook message from the man I have always loved and could never get over. I fought in my head if I should respond or not. It took a bit but I had to hear what he had to say. He apologized for everything that happened between us and wanted another chance. I agreed to meet him. It took me 3 months to decide my fate. I loved him and always will so I gave him another chance. We are still together and very happy. The only thing is that because he had a previous marriage to an awful woman, he now hates the idea of marriage. I want to be married and to him. I constantly have people asking me why I’m not married yet and it really hits a nerve with me. I would never leave him but it hurts that I’m being punished because of his past relationship. It just makes me feel like im not worthy enough to him to marry. And I can’t talk to him about it because I don’t want him to do it just because it’s what I want. I want him to do it because he wants to. It has just put me in a really bad funk lately and I can’t seem to get out of it.