I have been in love with only 1 person and we have known each other for over 15 years now. We started dating back in 2002 when he was in the marines. We were together for about 4 years on and off. Then I listened to my mom about moving to Florida and I left. My heart has always been with him no matter where I was. When he got out of the marines he was very distant and had extreme ptsd and had some things he needed to work through. In 2007 I moved back to my hometown and tried to rekindle what we had but he just stopped talking to me all of a sudden. In April of 2015 I had just started dating someone when one night I got a Facebook message from the man I have always loved and could never get over. I fought in my head if I should respond or not. It took a bit but I had to hear what he had to say. He apologized for everything that happened between us and wanted another chance. I agreed to meet him. It took me 3 months to decide my fate. I loved him and always will so I gave him another chance. We are still together and very happy. The only thing is that because he had a previous marriage to an awful woman, he now hates the idea of marriage. I want to be married and to him. I constantly have people asking me why I’m not married yet and it really hits a nerve with me. I would never leave him but it hurts that I’m being punished because of his past relationship. It just makes me feel like im not worthy enough to him to marry. And I can’t talk to him about it because I don’t want him to do it just because it’s what I want. I want him to do it because he wants to. It has just put me in a really bad funk lately and I can’t seem to get out of it. 

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  1. Hello. I have recently been told from my wife that she wants to leave becasue she dont love me anymore. She has told me and we decided (mostly on her part) to live in seperate rooms for the time being. she wants me to change myself becasue I want to not becaasue she wants too. It has been a week or 2 and I have now realized that I see things in myself that I want to do. I think once she came up with a plan and told me her side of the story I decided I needed to do whats best for me. I believe in your situation I think you need to be supportive of his past. Get to know him and see what it might have been in his last marriage that eneded it all. Identify that trigger. Let him know that you care about his feelings. Most men dont like to show their innerself and will simply push those away closest to him. I think little 30 min discusions once a week might help. It has in my situation. Be their as a friend.

  2. I have tried but he is marine vet who holds in his emotions. I will never give up on him. He hardly shows his emotions. I know he loves me and I knew being with him wasn’t going to be easy because of his ptsd. It is just hard for me sometimes to deal with because of my own insecurities.

  3. Hello, reading this brought tears to my eyes knowing that after so many years a part you guys came back together. It makes me happy to see that love is really out there and you are succeeding at it! I know it has to be hard not being able to marry the man that you love and want to spend the rest of your life with but just know you have that man. Most don’t and you are really lucky to have that kind of love. I wish you nothing but the best I hope someday you take that trip down the aisle 🙂

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