Welcome to my life. To get started I guess I will tell you a little about me. I’m Dezzy and I’m in high school. I figured I’d start to journal so my head won’t implode from all my bottled up emotions. This will just be a little look into my life weekly or whenever I just really need to vent. To get caught up on everything, I’ll just say what’s been going on in my life.. To start off I started off this year being a third wheel to my two friends who decided they like each other over the summer. I was a loner for awhile and it sucked so I got back together with my ex.. The guy who was my first kiss. Turns out he would be my first everything but then ended up dumping me, telling me his parents don’t want him to date during the school year but I found out that he just wanted to get back together with his first love.. Her name is Emma and Noah was still and will always be in love with her. I can’t blame him for leaving me. I wasn’t the best girlfriend on account of my jealously of his best friend who was a girl and I hated her. But Noah was my Emma. He was my first boyfriend, my first kiss, my first everything. After I gave him everything, he left me. Now onto my two friends, Haile and Zak. Haile is my best friend. She is always there for me and I’m there for her. But now Zak is in the picture. And since I’m single again I’m back to being the invisible third wheel. I feel awkward and so alone. Then there is my wonderful home. With my mom who uses me as a maid, my dad who does nothing but sit on the couch with his laptop, my younger brother, Adam, who is a pain in my ass and we fight everyday, and my baby brother, Amir, who is Autistic and calls me mom because I’m the one who always cares for him. So welcome to my life. Be prepared for the roller coaster, there are a lot of ups and downs.