Maybe it was a bad idea

So I found myself placed on yet another committee. Last week I went to the damned meeting that I was told would last 30 minutes, but lasted hours. I told my boss I did not want to be on the committee, that I just don’t have the time. I was supposed to be at cheer practice during that whole meeting last week. And then yesterday, he called me on the phone and asked me to come to his office for another meeting of that committee- it would be really brief. Ugh. It was an hour before I got out of there. And they had signed me up to attend a PD next week. I fumed about it all night last night. This morning I send an email saying I just didn’t have the time- I said a lot of stuff in it – that all the meetings we are having are killing me- that I work 12 hour days several days a week and work every single Sunday, and I’m still behind. I should probably not have done cheer, but I am and I can’t back out now. I supposed I shouldn’t have made him mad at me when I am asking him for a letter of recommendation so I can apply for out of state jobs, but good lord. I am drowning. I also missed a meeting this morning that was held at 8am. I just said fuck it and stayed in my room and worked – even though they called me- I didn’t answer. I am killing myself and I can’t keep up. I really do want to be a good teacher, but jesus. I know I work harder than anyone in that building- ugh. I have no life. I guess it’s a good thing I have no life because I don’t have time for a life. I went to bed at 8 last night. 

I hope he’s not pissed at me, but if he is, oh well. I just couldn’t do another thing and I cannot stand one of the people on that committee, anyway. I sure as fuck don’t want to be spending more time with her!

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