I don’t mind being single, I’ve been it for most of my life.
There are just these moments, when it seems like everyone has found a significant other and I’m here like : ‘who wants shots?’.
There’s a novelty to being ‘that friend’, but do I really want to be alone for the rest of my life?
I honestly don’t know, maybe I do.
I’ve been in relationships, but nothing ever lasted longer than a year. And trust me, it’s me, not them.
I’m always the one to call it quits, I find it so hard to let people get close to me.
People see this as mysterious, when really, I don’t know how to let people in. I don’t think I know how to love.
I’ve read that if you can’t love yourself, you can’t love anybody else. This might be the case. But where do I start. How does one love oneself? That’s the true mystery to me.
It might be a good idea to make a real effort into finding out who I am, learn to accept and love myself.