Sunday, October 30

Back from church.  Whew!  Matthew was tired and every little thing upset him.  Before we were out of the driveway he was crying because “he forgot to say “see you in a little while” to Miss Diana (his overnight sitter.) She had just left and I don’t have her number.  Had to phone daughter and have Diana call Matthew.  My hubby was turning around to take the boys back home already. Matthew calmed down after talking to Miss Diana.  So we tried again.  I am so tired I don’t even feel like typing this.  The problem about Matthew is he can have a meltdown over ANYTHING.  It’s totally unpredictable.  Poor little guy.  He hit the car window over and over and whined.  Afterward he is so tired and wants to sleep; and he is so sorry and begs everyone to forgive him and love him.  We are almost afraid to take him anywhere.  So is his mom.  I don’t blame her.  I think his meds are wrong and the doc hasn’t called daughter back about changing them possibly.  Meanwhile we are all suffering.  He has the dearest heart, as I’ve written on here before.  The kindest heart full of love.  Something is just not right in his brain.  God help him.

2 thoughts on “Sunday, October 30”

  1. My heart really goes out to Matthew 🙁 I just want to give him the biggest hug of all time and I’ve never even met him. I know how frustrating it is when you have something that you can’t help that sometimes makes you behave in a way that not only do the people around you dislike but the person who behaves that way actually hates acting like that too and it hurts them a million times more than they already are hurting anyway! It really is an awful state to live in and I hope so much the meds can be changed. I don’t know what it’s like over there but here in the UK our health system is in absolute crisis and things like mental health or behavioural difficulties are in SERIOUS DIRE crisis, it’s been labelled as ‘appalling’ in the news. It causes a million more problems and suffering to everyone who is affected. I hope it’s better where you live, the health system. I will pray for Matthew 😀

  2. Thank you so much! I appreciate your prayers more than you can know. You are right, after an outburst he apologizes to everyone and asks to be forgiven and says “I love you” to everyone individually, hoping to hear it back. I give him lots of hugs and affirmation. I don’t think he can do any better until meds are updated. Thank you for your kind and understanding comment!

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