I have had trouble sleeping the last 2 nights. I am super aggravated with my job right now. I’m aggravated that the people in charge are not doing anything about the dumb asses that do nothing all fucking day. Giving the kids word searches and coloring pages like its a goddam day care. We literally have kids that cannot read. And they have to have shitty teachers. My kids face unbelievable obstacles to any hope of success, and these sons of bitches are giving them coloring sheets.
I know I need to not worry/think about things that are out of my control. I just get so frustrated. I work my ass off, and it doesn’t even matter. No one gives a shit. They just give me more to do because I’m competent.
I am thinking about moving forward with selling my house now. I would like to be rid of it in case something came up job-wise. I am so done with school right now, I think I would peace-out. I think I would leave all my stuff in my room- not take it- strip it clean, like the grinch. I would just get it when school’s out in May. I don’t know if I even matter. I know I love the kids- almost all of them – and I want the best for them. I am just sick to death of the adults. Of lazy mother fuckers getting paid on the 2nd highest salary schedule in the state and then giving coloring sheets. I hate lazy people so much. The lazy children get on my nerves, too. I much prefer the hellions to the ones that just sit there like a lump and won’t pick up a pencil. That drives me crazy.
I just need to get the fuck out of here. Fuck it. Fuck it. Fuck it.