I’ve given a lot to thought about why I’m doing what I am doing. Love. The only reason is love. I’ve never really felt a love deep in my soul. I’ve never had that unconditional drive to want someone the way I want her. She has changed my entire life in a short time. It’s like being reborn. My eyes are open and the possibilities are endless. The way I see life is different and my fears are gone. I live her, love her, feel her. She’s there in my mind when I sleep and when I am awake. Everything I do is for her. Tho I don’t even think she wants me anymore. From feeling this love I also feel the loss. The pain of her not being there. Not hearing her voice, not feeling her arms around me. It’s undiscribable. I truly miss her.