I woke up feeling down as usual. I just wanted to feel better even for a short time so I went out for a run. I had been slacking off on running recently. Running is hid or miss. It sometimes give me a high feeling but it can totally drains out of me. I just needed to do something this morning.
It was such a cold morning. I just tried not to think anything, focus on running. I could keep going and ran 5k.
It has been in a while since I felt this good. Running sure did life up my mood.
Right now,I am not feeling high but feeling good…more calm and relaxed in a way. This feeling is what I want for a long term. I miss the feeling high but I know I need to deal with the downside with it. It is a trade off.I have not felt high for a long time since I started my medication 2 months ago. I have been feeling down a lot but not irritated like used to be. It was a horrible feeling as well. The medication I take helps me to stabilize my mood.
I finally finished the introduction part a little while ago. I just wanted to complete something since I have not been able to stick with anything recently. I wanted to feel some kind of achievement. I think I really needed it.
I am on day 19 for the morning ritual. They say I need to keep up with it at least for 3 weeks to see some kind of change. So far, not really.. but It wont hurt anything so I am planning on doing that.
1) Write down 3 acts of gratitude
I am grateful to my student Natsumi chan for taking my lessons. I am grateful for my neighbors for being quiet at night. I am grateful to Charlene for being concerned about my condition.
2)Write down one positive experience that occurred the past 24 hours as detail as possible.
I had a relaxed and pleasant time at the pool yesterday. The stuffs were nice and greeted me with smile. I always have a good time there.
3)Exercise for 15 minutes or more I ran 5k for 30 minutes
4)Meditation I did 6 minutes with Ipod
5)Write a letter to someone to express gratitude
Dear my friend Nori-chan, Thank you for having me for 3 days last month. I was not feeling well but you were so considerate and helpful to take me places. I hope our friendship will last forever no matter where we are. You are such a great friend to me. Thank you.