Unlike yesterday, I woke up having no energy at all. I just wanted to stay in bed but I decided to go out as I had planned last night. I went to downtown. It was so tiring surrounded by so many people.. I don’t know where they are coming from.. So many people everywhere.. I felt so overwhelmed.. I just don’t like people.. Getting out of the front door is the hardest part for me. I try not to think anything. Once I am out, most of the time I am ok though.
I tried to be excited about the food I was eating or the stuff I bought.. like that was the way I was supposed to feel. I do things everyone does only to kill my time. I don’t need to do those or to be honest, I don’t want to. But I let myself do what I want to do, I would not be able to go out. The idea scares me.
My morning ritual Day 20
1) Write down 3 acts of gratitude
I am grateful for getting a message today. I am grateful to the stuff at the store for helping me find a stuff I was looking for. I am grateful to the stuff for her smile at the bakery.
2)Write down one positive experience that occurred the past 24 hours as detail as possible.
I appreciate that my husband gave me a massage. My lower body was bothering me because of the morning run yesterday. My pain is way better now.
3)Exercise for 15 minutes or more I did yoga for 25 minutes
4)Meditation I did 6 minutes with Meditation audio
5)Write a letter to someone to express gratitude
Dear, Mochizuki Sensei You were such a great boss. It was such a pleasant experience working for your school. It was my very first teaching experience. I learned a lot from my students. I am glad that we still keep in touch. Thank you.