I’m determined to try my hardest at the game tonight. I’m not used to being the worst player on the team and it’s been a humbling experience. It’s sad how your confidence slowly starts to disappear with age. When I was younger, I didn’t care if I missed a shot, gave a bad pass, lost the ball, etc., but now? I’m afraid to screw up so I play a safe game. The problem with this approach is I’m not accomplishing anything. I know my team doesn’t trust me. I’ve become *that* girl*: The one they don’t want to pass to. I just need to have some faith in myself, but faith alone won’t make me a better player and an asset to the team. I need to physically try. Come to the ball. Make a run. Take a shot. I’ve asked my husband to help me tonight. He’s a fantastic player so I know he’ll do what he can to set me up, send me passes, etc. I love him for that. He’s willing to do all of the work on the field and give me glory (that final tap in) just so I feel better about myself. I think I can do it tonight! We’re not playing a strong team so I don’t need to feel so incompetent. I just don’t want to turn into one of those old (I’m 30, lol) people who just sort of coasts because they’re too afraid to make mistakes. I miss the invincibility I felt when I was young. Can anyone relate to that feeling?
Newlywed (VIII.XX.MMXVI) Recently exited the 20's and excited for the dirty 30's My husband is the epitome of masculinity... He amazes me daily. I want to be a Trophy Wife. Mother of (1) Min Pin FSW *Disclaimer: In the online world, I get accused of being a bitch. (A lot.) After the name calling and prior to the URL banning, a lot of what I was being "bitchy" about ends up being proven to be true and people hate me for that. (I empathize with the Messenger...) Let me clarify something: I'm not a bitch. I am, however, extremely perceptive and am not afraid to point out the truth even if it'll hurt your feelings. You'll never be the best person you can be if you live in denial. I believe in women helping women even if said help makes you cry first.