Do you ever have one of those moments where everything hits you at once and reality sets in? Its finally happened. For the final time. I no longer have the will or the strength to continue to live this life. I do a lot for people, for my “family”. I give them money, i pretty much pay for their love and attention and they still do me wrong. Everyone uses me, then drops me as if i were nothing to them. Its draining, Im tired. Im tired of being lonely and not having anyone to call. Im tired of being ignored because i have nothing to give. Im tired of being there for other people and they leave me hanging when i need them. I try my best to make everyone feel better, but what about me? Im lonely, so lonely. No one knows how i feel. Its never going to get better. I don’t even want to live to find out if it does to be completely honest. My mom has tried to help me through it all. I love her for that. But some things she just can’t fix. But i appreciate her being there for me. I love her more than anything. But i can’t stay here anymore. I believe i was a mistake. Im not emotionally or mentally stable enough to stay alive any longer. Im not sure how or when. But i do know it will be sometime soon most likely. It hurts to breathe, it hurts to feel. I can’t take it. Farewell.