I used to be a type of person who was so strict on myself. Once I was committed to something, I would be able to stick with it. But one day, I got so tired of the way I was. What’s the point of torturing myself over nothing?? Who cares if I achieved or not? These thing wont affect me or anyone anyways.. Then I have stopped trying hard for anything.
After that, I would start to do something but never be able to keep it up. I would start and quit.. like this went on and on and on.. I have started to feel like I was a failure who could not do anything.
I thought.. maybe it is not what I did or could do.. The feeling of satisfaction.. that matters more.
I made some goals that I could do fairly easily. I just want to feel I am capable of something. I make sure I work on daily goals and others.
My daily goals
Write the journal and do the morning ritual
Eat healthy 80%. Don’t eat when feeling upset or overeat.
Take my meds
My weekly goals
By 5th set up a journal site/ Done
By 12th Finish reading the book/ Did yesterday
By 19th set up a fitness blogs site
By26th Finish my Kana workbook
10days 5k run per month
None of them are big deals but it is nice to have something listed what I am supposed to work on. and when I achieved, I felt good about myself. As I thought it was not what I did, but I could actually stick with it.