I had an appointment last Saturday with my doctor. I like him. The first time I met him, I knew he would be my doctor.
I have been taking some Chinese medicine since the first visit a couple of months ago. This one is not for bipolar 2 per-se. There have been cases that it is affective for bipolar 2 but more for stabilizing my mood. I was being irritated all the time.
After being on this meds, I could notice the huge difference. But the other hand, I have started to notice depression. It has been so tough to feel low like this all the time. I guess I was too irritated before so I didn’t have to deal with this feeling.
A few days ago, I asked him to change the meds. I told him that it has been too much to deal with . He still didn’t want to put me on anti-depressant but he prescribed me different kind. I have been taking those and I feel fine. No depressed so far but SUPER sleepy… I could not even stay up until 8pm last night. I asked him if I could reduce and he said I could skip the afternoon one. I will see how it goes.
I don’t hesitate being on meds anymore. Things are getting changed but still seeing a shrink is not common here. People would put down on us. That is why suicide rate is so high in Japan. I don’t drink , do gambling or smoke. What’s so bad about popping some pills to make me feel better. I just want to live more easily and lightly. It has been so tough for me. I do everything what I can do as much as possible but at this point, I need some help from outside. I hope I can get through this.