Doctor’s visit / my medications and conditions

I had an appointment last Saturday with my doctor. I like him. The first time I met him, I knew he would be my doctor.

I have been taking some Chinese medicine since the first visit a couple of months ago. This one is not for bipolar 2 per-se. There have been cases that it is affective for bipolar 2 but more for stabilizing my mood. I was being irritated all the time.

After being on this meds, I could notice the huge difference. But the other hand, I have started to notice depression. It has been so tough to feel low like this all the time. I guess I was too irritated before so I didn’t have to deal with this feeling.

A few days ago, I asked him to change the meds. I told him that it has been too much to deal with . He still didn’t want to put me on anti-depressant but he prescribed me different kind. I have been taking those and I feel fine. No depressed so far but SUPER sleepy… I could not even stay up until 8pm last night. I asked him if I could reduce and he said I could skip the afternoon one. I will see how it goes.

I don’t hesitate being on meds anymore. Things are getting changed but still seeing a shrink is not common here. People would put down on us. That is why suicide rate is so high in Japan. I don’t drink , do gambling or smoke. What’s so bad about popping some pills to make me feel better. I just want to live more easily and lightly. It has been so tough for me. I do everything what I can do as much as possible but at this point, I need some help from outside. I hope I can get through this.

2 thoughts on “Doctor’s visit / my medications and conditions”

  1. Nami, you made a good choice going to a doctor. Yes, he can help you with meds, etc. I’m sorry Japan looks down on getting help. Sometimes meds are a gift from God! I hope he gets you regulated just right where you can enjoy your life fully and awake! Hugs!

  2. Thank you for your comment. Your words mean a lot to me. I don’t have many people who I can talk about my conditions. It is nice to be able to express this side of me. Your comments are always so sweet. Thank you!!

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