I had a best friend who I have not seen for ages. We used to be so close. Even while I was in the US, we made sure to chat via Skype regurally. We have known each other more than 20 years.
A few years ago, we had a fight. She would just not stop complaning. She was not be able to be happy for me anything. All she wanted to hear were others’ sad strories so she could feel she was not the only one who was miserable.
I didn’t get the way how she was . I told her clearly I was like.. you were getting so ugly inside. Sucking up others’ unfotunates makes you happy… it is sick. I wanted her to snap out of it. Stuipdly, I thought I was doing her favour… but of course it wasn’t. She got so hurt and I lost my best friend.
After coming back to Japan this time, We had not talked since the fight, but I wanted to see her. We had lunch acting like nothing had happened. It turned out to be I had a horrible time. She was putting such a think wall around her so that she didn’t look miserable. I got so turned off by her and lost interested in seeing her anymore.
I don’t know what got me to do but I wanted to see what’s going on with her. I had not contacted her over a year and a half. I emailed her and exchanged emails each other back and forth a few times just very easy talk.. like nothing much but can’t complain.. my business is good that kind of stuff.
Without putting too much thought, I apologized for hurting her at that time. She thanked me for it and she said she respected me saying this to her. She said my words saved her feeling.
I just didn’t want to lose her. The feeling was way bigger than saying sorry. and it was not even a big deal to me.
We got a plan to hung out in a couple of weeks. I am so looking forward to it. 🙂