Social Exhaustion

As an introvert, I need my alone time.
The past few and following weeks are stuffed with social events and it makes me so mentally exhausted.
Big part of me loves being with friends and family, it makes me feel appreciated and I almost always have a great time.
But why does it leave me so drained? I don’t see other people struggle with this.

Next to the planned drinks with friends, family obligations and a full time job, I’ve met someone that could turn into someone special. But I feel like my schedule and head is so ‘full’, that I can’t be dating anyone right now.
I really like this person, but a big part of me wants to call it quits, just for the sake of having one less thing to deal with.

But I always do this, I’ve lost count on the amount of times I gave up on someone, before it even started.
What does this mean? Am I not ready for commitment? Would I rather be single for the rest of my life?

I don’t know, all I know right now is that I need to cancel a few things that are coming up, because honestly, I’m on the edge of tears. I can’t do this for much longer.

Goodnight Journal,


[now playing Cigarettes After Sex – Affection]

4 thoughts on “Social Exhaustion”

  1. I struggle with being drained when I’m around people. Social situations stress me out and I can’t wait to retreat to solitude. Ironically, too long in solitude makes me feel unwanted and alone. I can’t seem to find the perfect balance of social and solitude.

  2. @areyouhappy exactly! When I’m alone for too long I feel the same thing, I hope we can find a good balance at some point in our lives.

  3. @Noah, I am sorry that you feel this way. I think that if you can see yourself with the person you’ve referenced in this post, then go for it. I don’t think you should give up on someone before anything even starts to happen. Life is a crazy big ball of mess, but we have to do what we want to mold it into something we’ll be happy with. When you need a break, take one. You are important and your needs matter. Start taking care of yourself more and life will feel a million times better. Stay hopeful!

  4. @Demi thanks for your kind words, they really help. You’re right, I probably shouldn’t give up just yet, but I will need to take a break first.

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