Wednesday, November 23rd 2016
I think I’m going to go straight to the point. There was nothing too necessary to mention anyway today, and it’s getting late, so I want the entry to be shorter so I get my rest. Basically, I’ve been very stressed ever since I got home. When I got home I began thinking of all the tasks I had to do, and it began to stress me out to the point of tears, even when usually stress is a motivator for me. Then my computer stopped working and I have to bring it to the shop. My evening was just me working on my dad’s birthday poster, studying little math, staring at a wall in my room while crying now and then out of pure stress, watching YouTube for a long period of time and then talking to Megg Gawat about my stress and OCD, which I think OCD is the main factor that is stressing me out so much. He mentioned some things, it didn’t help and got me more frustrated and stressed. Then he mentioned subconsciously it seemed that I think that only a psychologist will solve this for me, and nothing else, which, he was correct. But I don’t want to be swayed one way when I might have been right in the other, so seeking a professional who knows exactly what they’re doing would be best for me. Anyway, he tried to help, unfortunately, it didn’t go as he intended and made things a little worst, I came off at aggressive at some points when I shouldn’t have been and he decided to stop in case he made things worst again.
My mind is just really all over the place and I’m stressed, and confused, and frustrated, and sorry, and crying… I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I never really acted this way before. Just… Too many things going on, too many. I think I just need to pray and go to sleep.
That’s all for today.