This newfound energy has been born inside of me.
I have already started to feel more connected with people.
This is my fourth day sober, and I have just returned from my second AA meeting.
I am feeling the physical effects of alcohol withdrawal, tiredness, sight shakiness and sever tension headaches.
However the warm feeling of hope drowns out the physical pain.
I spent the majority of last night and this afternoon watching a series… well one series turned into two and now I am into the third season of the series (my addictive personality… if I have the taste for something I just can never quite get enough of it, no matter what it is) Well anyway I have not been able to concentrate like I have in YEARS!
I feel as though I am beginning to feel at harmony with myself. I have accepted that yes I am an addict, and yes I do need help. I have began reaching out to others and admitting that I need help, and I greatly value all the support I am receiving.
Being able to put my hand up and admit to who I am takes away a huge weight that has been laying heavily on my shoulders. I am beginning to believe in a better brighter future.
At the moment I am just plainly describing the feelings I am having in this present moment. I’m sure that in coming days my mood will change and I will begin to remorse about the past and become apprehensive about the future.
But at this given time, I am at harmony!
Good night x