Today is Tuesday November 29 206.
I have 9 minutes to write so I might finish up later who knows.
The main reason I wanted to write in this thing is because I really need to evaluate or figure out a plan. It’s been a while since I really connected with someone. I feel content without someone. When I am with someone I always find ways to push them a way. Maybe I should talk about that. I don’t think it’s bad that there are things that bother me about people. Most relationships don’t work out for me because people only invest themselves emotionally. I don’t feel like that’s giving it 100. Like in order to have a healthy relationship people need to know what makes them happy. And just because I am happy doesn’t mean you will be happy because I am with you.
I like that this woman has a job. She’s been there for a while. I remember when I first saw her for a while she would come to work wearing crutches. I think her leg was broken. How did her leg break?
I remember after I graduated 8th grade and moved to Texas. The girl down the street wanted to hang out all the time. I didn’t think anything of it. She was nice. She was new. I wasn’t used to this.
But I want nice. I want respectful. I want patience. I’ m scared though in a way because I don’t expect her to wait.
The thing that really attracts me to this girl is that she knows my name and she always says hi to me. But I don’t know if she’s saying hi to be nice or if she’s saying hi because she likes me.
Today I walked into work and walked right past her without saying anything. I never say anything to her. I did say hi and she walked away. Maybe she didn’t hear me. Or maybe she was nervous too.
MY GOD this shit freaks me out!
I just want to figure out her name. It’s simple Hi. What’s your name? I could even smile when I ask her. And then say okay I have to go to work now. I’m sure I’ll see you around. OMG!
Taking a minute to think about things really helps. And now my time is up!