You know, you cant just decide to be my friend from time to time. Whenever you are alone, you run to me. But when others show interesst in being with you, you just pretend i dont excist. I’m sorry but it doesnt work like that.
Friendship comes and goes as you grow. Its normal, I’m pretty sure everyone experinces what its like to grow apart from a friend, or lose one. I here also know alot about those things. I’ve left alot of people because they were toxic. Leaving them as a friend is not really something I enjoy, the reason for why I’m leaving is why it hurts too be with them.
Im not someone to be put on the sideline as a plan B. True, I’m always there for you whenever you are sad. I walk with you on the lonelyline whenever noone else does. If I see you are hurting I’m there for you. Thats what friends do, we are there for eachothers. Only thing many people dont realize, is that there needs to be two people in a friendship. I cannot keep having to let the friendship work on my own. I’m worth more than that.
We have been friends for years, thats what makes it so hard. All the memories we have had together, yet it is so easy for you to replace me. Even when you see me standing alone, not minding whatever you are doing, you just ignore me. It hurts. I see you smile, and Im happy you have lots and lots of friends. It would just be nice if I could feel what its like to be included aswell. Im just wondering. The time when you were too shy to befriend anyone, the time where you refused to talk to people. I was there for you, I made sure you werent alone. Doesnt that mean anything to you at all? Is everything we have done together nothing for you?
Reason why I stay for so long. Is probably because.. The feeling when someone actually is with you. Thats so great having someone to talk to. Just sucks their gone the next moment.
Loneliness is probably the thing that bothers me the most. I’m actually a really happy person. Just that one thing thats missing. Everyone have probably felt lonely at some point, so understand with me. Its not fun.