I went to the doctors today to talk about my medication as I’m not feeling any better on it, Iv recently been put on diazepam as well for panic attacks and it seems to be having a bad effect on me. I had to see a different doctor because mine wasn’t there. I was told I had to give my tablets another 4 weeks before they will think about changing them, and then she told me she wouldn’t have put me on diazepam if it was her I saw last time and she advised me to stop taking it. All doctors seem to do is fob you off with tablets or turn you away all together! she asked about any suicidal feelings or self harm, I was open and honest hoping she would give me some advice or help, I nearly burst into tears, my hands started shaking and my heart started racing. I know she could tell I was getting upset, she just looked at my cuts and told me to ring the crisis team if I needed them, she was shocked at my response when I replied, if I need them I still wouldn’t ring them because they turned me away last time she just looked at me blank, told me I can ring the doctors if I need them then sent me on my way. I don’t know what I expected her to do or say, I just wanted her to do something so I felt I was a step forward having gone to doctors.