My mind is in overdrive at the moment. I didn’t manage to fall asleep until 5am last night. Instead of lying in bed tossing and turning I read a book, since giving up booze I have become hungry for literature. Once I begin a book I struggle to put it down until I e finished it from front to back.
I still have a lot of anger inside me, I keep going over and over past events…. and I’m really struggling to forgive.
I wish I could just forgive you and move on. I keep waiting for a message or phone call but it never happens. I’ve deleted your number because I don’t want to contact you and look needy.
I wonder if anything I did hurt you? I wonder if you even care at all?