A Danger of EVP And Using Spirit Boxes
Fear is what evil spirits want from you if you are unfortunate enough to become their target. They feed off of it. It gives them more power and more abilities to interact with you.
I started dabbling with EVP in January of 2015. By the end of February, I first started hearing malicious voices (which had begun appearing on my recordings just a few weeks before) outside of my recordings. During the month of March, 2015, the situation began to rapidly deteriorate and I started to hear these malevolent voices more and more frequently. In March, I also began to experience bizarre physical sensations. It began one morning when I was awoken early by an intense vibration sensation that literally seemed attached to my body.
Then while I was trying to sleep at night, I started to feel what I can only describe as a finger literally coming up out of the mattress and poking me in my lower back. What this did was make me afraid.
Then in early April, literally over the course of a single morning at work, things just all at once exploded to an extreme degree. Suddenly now I was surrounded by voices. Some of them seemed to be coming from the outside, some of them were speaking to me from within my own head. I had an instantaneous panic attack. I told my boss that I wasn’t feeling well and I rushed straight home. I remember on the drive home, it was raining and the sound of the rain seemed to act as a kind of white noise through which even more menacing voices emerged. I called out of work for the rest of the week and more or less spent every agonizing moment either in bed unable to sleep, just staring at the ceiling while enduring a non-stop barrage of voices and physical attacks, or I would sit out on my back porch smoking cigarette after cigarette, desperately trying to calm my nerves even the slightest bit.
One night the voices put me through a sort of trial where they had me believing that I was undergoing my final judgement. I was told that if I went into such and such a room in my house, I would find the spirits of my parents and that they would be waiting for me to take me to Heaven. I was told to go here and there many times that night, but wherever I went, there was no one there, just these same malicious voices.
Finally, they told me that they had put me through enough that night and that they were going to give me a break for the night to allow me to sleep in peace for the first time in days. I could actually hear these voices fading away as if they were getting farther and farther off into the distance. I was given about 20 minutes of peace, then I heard a voice accuse me of thinking about spirits and once again, the onslaught of voices seemed to return again almost in an instant.
That night, they had me running around from room to room, the butt of their jokes, basically because I allowed myself to believe what they were saying because I was afraid of them.
One morning, when things were at their utter worse, I was in my bathroom when I heard a heavy but quick knock on the bathroom door. I thought this was odd since I lived alone and no one else was in the house (except for these malevolent spirits). I opened the door and walked down the hall to my living room where I saw my front door violently slammed open before my eyes. I was afraid in the moments before this incident happened and I was even more afraid after.
Fast forward a few weeks, when these malevolent spirits had me in a very low, self-loathing emotional state. They were telling me that Jesus, beautiful angels and spirits in Heaven, and the spirits of my parents had been praying for me, but that I was blowing everything because I was being a “useless sinner.” I was emotionally crushed by this because I believed them. I was afraid.
They told me one afternoon that they were going to “execute me” in ten minutes. My mind went blank. I was ready to give up the struggle to hold on and accept my fate. There was no point in fighting it then I thought, now it would be over and I waited for them to finish it. But nothing happened. Yet, I had believed them because I was afraid.
They told me that Lucifer was in my head. They told me that all of Heaven was grateful to me because I had been keeping Lucifer occupied. Perhaps it’s hard to understand unless one finds themselves in a situation like this, but for a time, I believed this to because I was afraid.
These evil spirits will say just about anything to instill fear. They can claim to be anyone. There is no depth of lowness that they won’t sink to, there is no restriction on their lies, they’ll literally say anything to incite fear.
As strange as this sounds, I often used to come into work and find messages on the voicemail from these malevolent spirits. There was one in particular that said “we’re coming for you.” Then throughout the day, they would literally call the phone at my work directly and harass me, or if I was already on the phone, they would seem to break in to the call and the call would become filled with static and distortion, through which their voices would emerge, harassing me.
All of this occurred last year, back in what I’ve come to call their “shock & awe” phase. This is when they pulled some of the stunts that you might typically see in a Hollywood horror movie. They were calling me on the phone, leaving messages on my voicemail, banging on walls, moving objects, causing me to have visions, …
Looking back now, I believe that they had the ability to do these things in part at least, because my fear gave them the ability to. It’s now been over a year and a half since this has all started for me, but now that I no longer live in fear, they no longer have the effect upon me that they once did.
I can’t even remember the last time that I got a phone call or a voicemail from “them.” It’s been quite a few months I know that. They can no longer bang on walls or move objects in front of me either it seems. I no longer hear the extremely intense, deep voices that literally seemed to be able to make the ground shake when they spoke. Those voices are long gone.
Now I couldn’t even write down all of the new story-lines that these malevolent spirits have been telling me for the past few months to try and instill fear in me once again. I simply forget them now much quicker. I know they still try and come up with some new lies and deceptions, but I don’t pay attention nearly as much now and hence they slip from my memory quicker.
Now their bags of tricks that they can use against me has thinned out significantly. I can still hear them and I can still feel them when they create these physical disturbances, but now it seems, this is all they can do anymore. I’ve taken away their power to a very large degree by letting go of my fear.
My fear gave them strength. My indifference to their tricks and schemes has made them weaker.
I hear the all too familiar female voice right now, the one I call “#1 on my shit list.”
She’s faintly trying to scream into my ear at this moment, she says “you son of a bitch!”
Perhaps she’s not too pleased with what I’m writing today.
November 26, 2016
I was reading through some older websites and web-post that talked about EVP this afternoon. Most of them were from a decade ago, but many of them stated that as far as they knew, no one has ever been directly harmed by doing EVP. Like so much in this field…. things change, we learn more but then we still realize that we know so little and there’s certainly no one out there that knows everything.
I can say with certainty after experiencing what I have experienced and meeting others as well that have also experienced this condition, that it’s time to update this notion that no one gets hurt by experimenting with EVP. It in fact can happen. As I’ve covered on this blog extensively, one could develop a condition of hearing intrusive and often harassing voices on a constant basis as well as experiencing real physical disturbances and other strange phenomenon.
In many ways, this condition is comparable to psychosis …paranormal psychosis perhaps? Well, all I can say is it does happen to a percentage of people that experiment with EVP. Yes, this seems to be a small percentage, but these are real people and their lives have been greatly affected by what has happened. I have always stated that I do not wish to sound all doom and gloom regarding this subject matter. I am fully aware that most people’s experiences with EVP do not turn into the utter disastrous situation that mine did, but it can and does happen sometimes. Many would say it has something to do with the mindset of the person or something along those lines, but that’s kind of a text book answer these days it seems to me (believe me, I’ve heard enough of it) I think the real truth is that there is much more to it than that. So I say again, in this field, we learn more but we still know so little, but I for one would like to go on record stating that people can in fact be harmed by experimenting with EVP.
November 24, 2016
“you wanted to hear spirits, well now you’re hearing spirits”
This is what I heard a menacing voice say to me a few months back as I was being bombarded by voices from all sides. It’s like they were in my car, outside of my car, beneath my car and on top of my car…I was surrounded by these voices. I thought this a rather smart ass comment at the time. Of course, it referred to how I started to hear these intrusive and harassing voices in the first place. This happened as a result of my brief experimentation with EVP the previous year.
After I had captured my first EVP recordings, the situation progressed rapidly and within a very short amount of time, I was hearing numerous voices on almost every recording that I had made. I had quickly attuned my ear to hear deep down into the depths of the recordings and there I found another world of sorts, another world of voices.
During the first few weeks, my new-found experiences with EVP seemed quite fascinating and remarkable. It seemed to me that I was developing a sort of rapport with these voices that I was hearing on my recordings. They would often address me by name and “Hello Brian and “We’re here Brian” would be what I often heard at the start of my sessions when I reviewed my recording files. Within just a matter of a month, my situation was beginning to “flip” around and I started hearing menacing and negative voices on my recordings that would throw out threats, profanity and insults. A few short weeks after this occurred, I was hearing these menacing voices outside of my recordings with just my ears. About a month after that occurred, I was hearing these harassing voices full force on a constant basis, 24/7 and at an extreme level.
At this time, everything that made a steady noise seemed to take on a distorted quality and voices would emerge from the noise. Many sounds seemed to take on this bizarre distorted quality. Much of the time, it reminded me of some of the negative EVP voices that I was hearing on my recordings during those final weeks of recording. In the Spring and early Summer of 2015, it was like EVP voices were emerging out of anything that made a steady noise.
I remember a few occasions when I would be driving with my windows down and the sound of the wind seemed to distort and form into these intense and menacing sounding voices. The sound of the wind rustling through the trees also seemed to distort into these voices as well. During those days, many things just sounded different. It’s hard to put into words but doing EVP for that short time and also by making it a routine like I did, I had effected my hearing. I was now hearing things in a different way to a large degree.
Since that time, my hearing has returned more back to normal, but not completely. I still am hearing these intrusive and menacing voices just not to the extreme degree and with the same intensity that I was hearing them back in 2015. I still often experience a very high pitched ringing in my ears as well. It’s as if I tuned my hearing into someplace else and unfortunately there have been these bizarre and often troubling side-effects.
November 24, 2016
I know that on this blog I’ve written extensively about my own situation, about my experience with EVP and how it essentially led to a disastrous situation where I was (and still am) hit with a condition of hearing intrusive voices and experiencing real physical disturbances. I know that I have mentioned that I know of other cases where people also developed this same condition after also engaging in EVP recording and in fact by other means of spirit communication.
I’ve seen a few cases where individuals have developed this same condition by using a Spirit Box. In my own situation, I was mainly using digital recorders when I was doing EVP. I did try a Spirit Box a few times during the two months that I was doing EVP, but I just never really took to it. The cases that I’ve seen where people developed this condition by using a Spirit Box are practically identical to my own. In the accounts that I’ve seen, the situation started out just like my own, the individuals started experimenting with a Spirit Box, they made contact within a relatively short amount of time. Once they did make contact, they were hearing numerous voices through the Spirit Box, they quickly established conversation level interaction with these voices (of unknown origin) and at first, these voices also seemed at least benign of not friendly and benevolent. Then just like in my own situation with using digital voice recorders, the nature of these voices flipped on them as well and became negative and menacing and eventually they started hearing these tormenting voices at all times without the Spirit Box.
Many of them also experienced disturbing physical phenomenon as well. In all of the cases that I’ve seen related to the use of a Spirit Box, the individuals also described hearing the voices often coming in over existing background noises, just like I did (and still do, but now to a much lesser degree). In so many ways, the accounts are practically identical to my own. I truly believe that using a Spirit Box is no less dangerous than using a digital recorder and vice versa. They can both bring on this extremely disturbing situation of hearing intrusive and harassing voices.
Thursday, November 24, 2016
Something out of the ordinary happened this evening. The voice that I refer to as “#1” seemed to be putting out these long screams for a while tonight. This voice is a voice that sounds like a younger woman. If I had to guess, I would say she sounds like a woman in her late teens, maybe early to mid-twenties at most. I call her “#1” because she has been my number one tormentor throughout this whole ordeal. I first started hearing her voice back in February of 2015, during my second month of recording. If I remember correctly, her arrival coincided with the arrival of the other negative voices that I began to hear on my recordings during that month. When my situation became a living nightmare and I began to hear these menacing voices outside of my recordings, her voice was the one that I would hear most often and she was always the most cruel and tormenting.
This evening, she was throwing her usual barrage of insults and harsh criticisms at me, but then out of nowhere, she just started screaming a rather angry scream. I suppose that she was just trying to freak me out and be as disturbing to me as she could possibly be. I can hear her almost screaming at me right now as I write this. She’s been acting rather insane this evening, but I suppose insane is truly what she may be. She certainly has been my harshest tormentor. I’ve pleaded with her to just leave me alone more times that I can remember.
Much of the time, she professes herself to be “an evil spirit.” She seems to gloat in this and take a sort of demented pride in it. Recently she has been referring to herself as “Lucifer’s Lieutenant.” Other times in the past, she has claimed to be a human spirit. She seems to enjoy playing these mind games regarding her identity. What I do know for certain is that she is tyrannical, cruel and most likely insane.
November 22, 2016
All in all, today was a bit calmer until I came home from work and took a nap. I did manage to sleep, well I should say almost. I was attacked as usual with strong voices and physical disturbances, but I was able to reach this type of half-sleep, half-awake state. I was still fully aware of their presence and their harassments. They have been talking in a ridiculous manner a lot recently, but this is actually quite the norm with them. They’ve been playing the old identity game a lot these days. I’ve been hearing them say that they are “Lucifer’s Lieutenants,” and “ an alien invasion force” and just today they told me that they are “Nazis.”
They truly do turn this into a kind of mind game. They know that it gives them an edge if they can keep me guessing about their identity. I try not to because it simply does me no good. There is no way from my vantage point to know who or what they are with any degree of certainty, but of course it’s the big mystery and they enjoy playing upon this and using it to their advantage. It is a question that can leave you constantly guessing.
What I do know is that these spirit attachments that I suffer with are cruel, tyrannical and relentless. Trying to reason with them is like trying to reason with a brick wall. From what I’ve experienced so far, I’m sorry to say that all of my efforts have proven futile. They are invisible bullies and they seem to be very content with this. Today I heard “#1” say, “we are desperate to continue your suffering.” What this means exactly, I just don’t know, but I find it to be a perfect example of their mentality. Their sole purpose seems to be to cause suffering. Maybe I’m wrong about that in some way. I’m open to the possibility. But as of right now, from what I’ve experienced, I just don’t see it any other way.
November 18, 2016
Their constant presence was quite maddening for me today. What I wouldn’t give but for a few hours of peace and quiet, just a few hours. I hardly remember what that is like now. It’s been so long since I’ve experienced it. Even at times when the voices aren’t that bad, their presence is constant still. I try and be indifferent. Usually I can be. I just wanted to sit and read a book in silence. The silence was less than absolute. Even though it was fainter, there was still that tiny voice there trying to be intrusive and disruptive. I just heard “we’re electric spirits.”
I have heard the voices say this before. Does this have some reference to my messing around with EVP, which is how I came to hear these voices. Who knows? So much of what these voices say is some kind of “mind twister.” My refrigerator just kicked on. Now I’m hearing the voices coming in louder over the hum of the frig motor. How surreal it all is. Refrigerators, fans, the shower, the sounds of all of these things and more throw out voices at me now.
They are saying more mind twister lines right now. They like to play identity games. They like to keep you guessing at who or what they are. Some days, you just reach a point where you don’t even care anymore. Whoever they are, they never seem to shut the hell up. They use these damn voices as a means of torment and torture. Their words are pretty much all damn lies but they’ll keep throwing them out there at you…voices and lies…voices and lies.
They try and get their words to sink in, they want to get their hooks into you, they are masterful at the art of psychological mind games, but again…voices and lies. Their threats are empty. They can do little to back them up. They can do little but keep up their constant barrage of chatter and cause physical disturbances that can cause me real problems when I’m trying to sleep. I still have to take a sleep-aid almost every night for without it, I’m often kept awake by all of the chatter that I hear as well as the disturbing physical sensations.
“We are Satan’s Lieutenants “,
That’s what they are telling me now. I’ve heard them saying this to me for the past few weeks. But why didn’t they reveal this to me a year and a half ago? Perhaps because a year and a half ago, they were identifying themselves as something else. It’s always been back and forth with them. They go all over the place with claims about their identity. One week they’ll claim to be human spirits, the next week they’ll say that they are not human. This is the real mystery and all I can state is that I simply don’t know.
While I was recording EVP for those two months back in the winter of 2015, for the most part, many of the voices that I was hearing on my recordings sounded human. Naïve as I was at the time, I simply assumed that this was the case. In fact, I don’t recall ever having another opinion on the matter until a few months later when I began to be terrorized by these entities.
In the very beginning, I basically assumed that since they sounded human, then they must be human spirits. I put my belief and my trust in that and I let my guard down. I have heard these voices in many different ways, but often when I hear them, they still do sound very human. However, I have experienced deception at the hands of these entities to extreme degrees so I no longer assume that since they sound human than they must be human. I state emphatically that I just don’t know. What I do know is that this group that harasses me are intrusive and malevolent and they simply have no regard for my privacy of my well being at all.
When I hear them, they are constantly on the offensive with their voices and lies. I may seem overly judgmental regarding this, but this is simply the conclusion that I hold these days based upon my experience of interacting with them and their behavior for the last year and a half. They chatter constantly. They use this as a means of abuse. Yes, often the voices can be suppressed with medication. Yes, often one can train one’s mind to block out the voices to a very large degree. But these entities do not often cease their chattering. They throw it at me constantly like an artillery barrage.
It was much worse back in the first few months of this ordeal for me, back when this situation first blindsided me and I was more or less knocked on my ass by it. Back then, I was so terrified by the situation and in such a state of anxiety that I was allowing myself to believe everything that these entities were telling me. My whole situation had progressed and fallen apart so rapidly. I had only just taken up EVP just a few short months before and had quit recording after just two months when I started to hear these harassing voices that I had been hearing on my recordings…outside of my recordings.
By April of 2015, my situation had become a living nightmare. I was at the time hearing these harassing voices on a constant basis 24/7. I was also experiencing an escalation in the physical abuse as well. I would feel weird vibrations on my body, bites and stings, as well as the feeling that something was latched on to me. Sometimes it was like I could sense its slight weight. I also experienced a few occasions at that time where I had very vivid visions. I was hardly able to eat or sleep during those first few weeks so I’m sure that this was a large factor and it probably made my perception to these disturbing things even worse.
I know that most people do not have such terrible experiences with EVP, but sometimes it can turn into an absolute disaster like this. I do not know much about psychic abilities or extra-sensory perceptions, but in most of the cases of this situation that I’ve seen, from the time when the person first started engaging in spirit communication to the time that they started hearing the voices outside of the recordings with just their ears, it’s usually a rapid sequence of events. In my own situation, it took about two months for me to start hearing the harassing voices outside of the recordings. Most of the other cases that I’ve seen are very similar, the time from starting out to being struck with this condition is usually just a matter of a few weeks or months it seems. Of course, there are differences in different cases however.
I do suspect that a certain percentage of people are more vulnerable and at risk of this occurring. Call it psychic hearing, enhanced hearing, etc.. I can’t say with certainty, but when this situation strikes, the individual usually establishes contact with these unknown entities rather quickly and the communication becomes quite intense which is often carried out over a close period of time, meaning, that the communication becomes routine for a while. This I believe, is when one truly enters the danger zone.
When the situation strikes, it can be gradual at first, but then strikes full force. In my situation, in March of 2015, I was experiencing escalating incidents of hearing these voices more and more each day. Then literally over the course of a single morning in early April (of 2015) I started hearing these voices on a continuous basis. I’ll never forget that day. I was at work, it was mid-morning and all of a sudden I began to hear numerous voices within my head. Up to this point, I had mostly been hearing the voices speaking to me over various background noises. But that morning, when my situation seemed to explode to an extreme level, I was hearing them not only through background noises, but also speaking to me from within my head very clearly. Needless to say, this caused me extreme panic and I told my boss that I wasn’t feeling well and I left work. I immediately headed home. I was harassed by these voices the whole way. I would call out of work for the next week and I could do little else but lie in bed all day (but unable to rest) and face the onslaught and the barrage of these constant and menacing voices.
November 23, 2016
The malicious female sounding voice that I simply call “#1” has been quite vocal and indeed very malicious this evening. She has been my primary tormentor throughout this whole ordeal and I even remember hearing her voice quite often on my EVP recordings back in 2015. She appeared on my recordings towards the end, when other negative voices started to appear and my overall experience with EVP essentially “flipped” and went from being a fascinating experience, to becoming a rather frightening one.
“you have no idea”
I just heard her say to me. I heard this statement from her numerous times. It appears to be one of her favorite lines anymore. There seems to be no reasoning with her. I’ve tried. There doesn’t appear to be “anybody home.” She seems completely caught up with her own malevolence. She’s constantly spewing critical and negative comments at me. She’s constantly trying to break me down, to make me hate myself, but she fails because she is a tyrant and her opinion of me means very little to me. She acts psychotic and is constantly lashing out at me. I’ve heard her say things like “we feed on human suffering”, “we suffer so we’re going to make you suffer”, “we feed on fear.”
Is any of this true? I simply don’t know. I take everything I hear with a grain of salt, especially from her. Whenever I’ve become seriously angered over this situation, she’s usually the root cause. There is no reasoning with her, she’s a complete and total brick wall and she’s apparently insane.
Some may think me cruel to say such things, but they haven’t had to live with hearing her voice and all that she spews for the last year and a half. Her words have no effect on me now. I give them no regard. She’s an oppressor with no consideration for anyone else it seems to me, so I’m simply not interested in anything that she has to say at all. Ignoring her seems to be the best option.
November 17, 2016
Another day of these voices. For much of the day I was hearing a steady barrage of insults and threats from them. I’ve been trying to read in peace this evening but they’re constantly trying to create a disturbance, but all and all, I was quite indifferent to them today. I’m hearing them now, mostly the voices are coming in over the noise of my heating system located in my utility closet, but there seems to also be a few whispery voices coming from other parts of the room. I can’t wrap my mind around the fact that they have been following me around constantly, literally everyday going on a year and a half now. Right now, as I write this they are causing a throbbing sensation on my left leg. Usually I’ll feel the physical sensations and disturbances at night while I’m trying to sleep. Usually it’s these strange vibration sensations.
Other times it feels like these small orbs, perhaps around the size of a marble, perhaps even smaller, are landing on me and moving around. It’s very strange and hard to describe. In the first few weeks of this situation, back in April of 2015, these physical disturbances would often cause me real pain. At times, whenever I got into bed, it seemed like something small was biting the side of my body. One night (and fortunately this only happened once) it felt like something the size of a golf ball was moving around and vibrating inside of my body. It even traveled through my head which was extremely disturbing to experience. Fortunately, all that extreme stuff has died down for me quite a bit. The physical sensations are still extremely aggravating to experience, especially at night when I’m trying to sleep, but as disturbing as they are now, they usually don’t cause me any intense pain like they used to do. Though every once and a while, I’ll feel a sharp prickling sensation.
Sometimes, I’ll also feel this slight electric shock sensation, usually around my feet. They did this to me a couple of times while I was driving which angered me quite a bit. It seems that they could only do this very briefly. This shocking sensation doesn’t seem to be something that they can keep up for any extended period of time. Perhaps it requires too much energy on their part.
But they certainly don’t lack energy when it comes to chattering. The chattering is non-stop, constant. If I’m lucky, I’ll be able to hone in my focus on something else, but the voices are still there, if I listen I’ll always hear them. If I’m around a lot of steady background noise, then that’s when it’s the worse. They seem to use the noise to project their voices so that I hear them louder. Back in the spring and summer of 2015, I experienced this effect to an extreme degree. Back then, it seemed like anything that made a steady background noise would be emitting voices. Things such as fans, running water, car engines, passing cars, driving with the window down on a windy day, rain…pretty much anything that made a steady noise, these harassing voices would emerge from.
This is still the case to a degree today, but not nearly now at such an extreme level. This strange effect seemed to wear off some on its own, though it is still ongoing. I’m hearing voices right now over the sound of my heating system. It’s all garbage. I’m just hearing the same old garbage from them. Trying to have a conversation with them is like talking to a brick wall. It always comes back to the same type of garbage. Holding conversations with them is what got me into this mess in the first place. I started having conversations with them back when I was messing around with EVP (the Electronic Voice Phenomenon) for just two months back in the winter of 2015. My endeavor with this proved successful to a remarkable degree and within just a short amount of time as.
My experimenting was seemingly fascinating during the first month, but during the second month, my recordings came to be filled with negative voices hurling threats, insults and profanity at me. By the end of the second month, this situation became a nightmare when I began hearing these tormenting voices outside of the recordings with just my ears. For a few weeks, the situation seemed to escalate by the day and by early April of 2015, I was hearing these menacing voices on a continuous basis. At this point I was also experiencing the physical disturbances to a more intense degree as well.
Sunday, November 20, 2016
In my own situation and in many others that I’ve seen, when we first started picking up numerous voices by means of EVP or Spirit Boxes, the majority of the voices that we were hearing were all seemingly benign of not outwardly friendly in nature. I remember that during the month of January, 2015 (when I first started experimenting with EVP), the voices that I was hearing on my recordings were all seemingly kind for the most part. Many would say “Hi Brian” or “Hello Brian” when I first started my recording sessions.
My recording sessions at the time were mainly focused on attempting to gather personal information about them. I would ask them for their names, where they lived, when they lived, when they were born, etc… These voices that I was hearing on my recordings all sounded very human. I just assumed that I was communicating with the spirits of human beings that had passed on to the other side. I do not in the slightest deny that I was very…very naïve back then. These voices sounded human, therefore they must be human. They seemed nice, therefore they must be nice. This was my extremely limited view of the situation at the time and it would end up having very serious consequences for me.
To this day, many of the voices that I hear still sound very human. Sometimes, if I’m hearing the voices coming in over the sound of a steady background noise, there will be a distortion to the voice, but for the most part, the voices that I hear do still sound human. But I certainly realize now that this does not necessarily mean that they are.
I have experienced deception and lies at the hands of these voices that I originally heard on my EVP recordings to extreme degrees. Just because they sound human at times does not mean that they are. I’m not saying here that they aren’t human either. What I am saying is that they can be very clever (this negative element), I simply state that I do not know what their origins are. This is the big mystery and that it will remain for me.
What did happen is that after about a month of recording and hearing only these more benign and kinder voices, I began to notice the arrival of some rather less than polite voices on my recordings. It started off slight at first, a random insult here, some random profanity there, but it grew worse as the days went on. Within the span of just a few short weeks, the nature of my recordings had completely changed. Where in the first month of recording, I found the whole experience to be extremely fascinating, during the second month, my experience quickly became rather disturbing. It got to the point towards the end of the second month that practically every EVP session that I did, every recording session that I made, was filled with these malicious voices and from there, I was soon hearing these negative voices outside of my recordings with just my ears.
I have seen this flipping of the situation in numerous other cases as well and it does in fact go well beyond just EVP and Spirit Boxes. I have seen this sudden turnaround in the nature of the initial contact in cases involving Automatic Writing, Pendulums, and Ouija Boards as well. I truly believe that the means of channeling are not the major factor. What is a more significant factor, is your willingness to communicate. Prolonged contact/communication is a major factor as well.
In my own case, once I captured my first few EVPs, doing EVP sessions became an almost nightly routine for me during those two months back in the winter of 2015. I allowed myself to be lured in by the curiosity of it all. I have seen this in other cases as well. Intense and prolonged communication with these unknown entities could very easily place one at great risk of this situation developing.
November 17, 2016
There is no denying it, whatever my initial intentions were when first setting out to experiment with EVP, what it quickly progressed into was channeling. I was channeling by means of EVP and I was in almost nightly communication with unknown entities for two months back in the winter of 2015. I think that this is a very important factor and a key component in all of this because I think this prolonged communication level of contact is truly where the danger zone lies. My situation progressed rapidly. Within just under two months, I had already begun to hear the malicious voices that I started hearing on my recordings, outside of my recordings. My experience with EVP for those two months was brief but very intense. After just a couple of weeks from when I started, I was hearing numerous voices on every single recording that I made. I would hear this same level of voices on my recordings at any location as well. I did recording sessions in my home, I did them at my work, once I even did a recording session in my car while driving home from work. On all of these recordings, I was hearing the same level of voices.
I began to realize that location really had nothing to do with it, it was me. In a sense, I had turned on a big, shining floodlight. I was transmitting my willingness to communicate out into another dimension and my call was answered though in truth, I knew not by whom. But at the time I was simply overcome with amazement at how I was capturing all of these EVPs and hearing all of these voices on my recordings.
The majority of these voices were very faint and it took a little while before I was able to hear them more clearly. I achieved this by going over my recordings, listening to them several times in a row. I began to notice that many of the voices were not actually embedded on the recordings at all but that I was hearing voices speaking to me in real time each time that I would listen to a particular recording. I would often hear different voices saying different things. This was not always the case, but it did happen rather frequently. As time progressed, it was as if I was hearing into much deeper levels of the recordings. I can’t stress this enough; a very significant change took place in how these recordings sounded to me between the first couple of weeks and just a month later.
Something with my hearing rapidly changed and I believe in part, it rapidly changed because I was making doing EVP sessions almost a nightly routine for me. These routine and intense EVP sessions, this sustained level of contact for these two months had a major effect upon my hearing. Within two months, I was hearing harassing and abusive voices outside of my recordings. A month after that occurred, I was hearing these tormenting voices on a continuous basis.
I look back now with much regret about ever getting involved with EVP in the first place. My experience became a complete and total nightmare. I know that not everyone’s experiences with EVP turn the same way. Some run into little or no trouble at all. But sometimes it does go bad. Sometimes it does turn into a disaster. I used EVP as a means of channeling. I achieved communication level contact with unknown intelligent entities and I turned it into a nightly routine. This prolonged exposure to and contact with these unknown entities led me to be stricken with a condition of hearing voices and also experiencing very real physical disturbances. I was naïve as hell and ran right into the situation without ever giving much regard to any possible dangers.
At the time, I simply would never have imagined that I would be hit with a condition of hearing voices outside of the recordings at the level that I did. But that is in fact what occurred and it occurred quickly and when it finally struck in full force in early April of 2015, it essentially sent me into a state of complete and total psychosis. I didn’t even want to leave my home; the voices were bombarding me so constantly and so severely.
I would caution anyone about taking up EVP at all, but I just want to note in this post that I believe the prolonged and intense level of contact that I had with these unknown entities was the major factor in what led to the events that followed.
November 13, 2016
For the past few weeks, I have been hearing these familiar voices often repeating a particular phrase to me. I’ll hear them say this at least a few times a day. The phrase is
“you were supposed to be a psychic.”
I reply in thought “if this is what being a psychic is like, then no thank you.”
What do they mean by this phrase? I don’t really know. It’s possible that they don’t mean anything at all by it as they often seem to like to throw out these mind twister phrases in an effort to just get you thinking about stuff.
Do I consider this whole situation to be some type of psychic phenomenon? Well perhaps it is maybe, but I can’t say so for sure with absolute certainty. What I do know is that I experimented with EVP briefly in the winter of 2015. I began to hear voices on my recordings, a lot of voices, then after about two months, I began to hear the voices outside of my recordings. I have heard these voices to varying degrees ever since.
I suppose that when I first started doing EVP back in 2015, I did not set out to use it as a means of channeling spirits. I suppose I was more just trying to see if there was actually anything to it. I had been watching a lot of paranormal themed shows and reading a lot of Victorian-era ghost stories at the time and for some reason, the idea of trying EVP popped into my head and unfortunately I allowed myself to entertain this idea to the point where I gave it a try.
Was I naïve back then…yes, of course I fully admit that now. The situation, once it started, moved so rapidly, that I did in fact use EVP as a means of channeling spirits. But what do they mean that I was supposed to be a psychic? In my opinion, it doesn’t matter. What I did back in 2015 I regret doing now. I did not expect to hear these voices like this and I would certainly rather not hear them at all. I’ve learned over time to take everything that they say with a serious grain of salt, so I am now not in any type of position where I would ever gladly receive messages from them. I just don’t want to hear voices like this at all. I’ve asked the voices more times than I can count to simply leave me alone, but they always just ignore me on this. They don’t respect my privacy so I don’t really care about attempting to engage with them in any type of meaningful conversation any longer. I’ve already tried that. I’m not going to buy into anything that they say to me that relates to what I was or am supposed to be according to their opinions.This is my life and I journey through it in my own way, based on my own decisions.
“you were supposed to be a psychic.”
Does that mean that I’m supposed to gladly embrace hearing these intrusive voices at this level? I’ll pass. If there’s anything psychic about this whole experience, then that’s just it’s very nature and there isn’t a whole lot that I can do about that. But I’d rather focus on just going about my day to day life and continuing to move away from the door that I opened to these voices back in 2015.
One of the more bizarre and extreme forms of contact that I’ve had with this intrusive and negative group of spirits that I was unfortunate enough to encounter while doing EVP recordings back in the winter of 2015 has been receiving voice mail messages from them and also real time direct phone calls. My first phone call incident occurred back while I was still doing EVP recordings, back before things took a turn towards the nightmarish.
One day while I was at work, I received a phone call. I answered the call like I normally would and what I heard on the other end was numerous people talking. These voices that I heard were not necessarily talking to me, or at least I could not tell if they were. I was simply hearing people talking. One comparison would be to imagine being on the phone and hearing (on the other end) the sound of people talking down a hallway or in another room. During this mysterious phone call, I was not hearing voices talking directly to me through the phone, but it was more like someone left a phone off the hook in a room full of people and I was hearing numerous real time conversations taking place. I couldn’t really make out the particulars of what was being said, I was simply hearing these voices speaking all at once. I thought this call rather strange and after a few moments, I hung up the phone thinking that it was probably a wrong number.
I thought nothing more of that mysterious phone call until after a few nights later, while I was listening to and reviewing a recording of an EVP session that I had just done. On that particular recording, I heard a voice say “We called you.” It didn’t take more than a brief moment for me to figure out what this phrase meant. My mind immediately went back to that mysterious phone call that I had received at work just a few days prior.
I suppose that at the time, I simply felt amazement over this phone call incident. At this point during my experience with EVP, I was still only hearing kinder and more benign voices. I had not yet reached a point where the negative voices started to appear on my recordings. But during March of 2015, after I had experienced hearing these negative voices both on my recordings and outside of my recordings, I began to have even more bizarre incidents involving voice mails and direct phone calls.
March of 2015 was what I call a month of escalation. It was during this month that I began to have more and more incidents of hearing these voices with just my ears as well as first starting to experience physical sensations and phenomenon, but at this point, it was not on as much of a continuous level as it would soon be during the next month. I remember a few occasions where I came into work and found voicemails with these same voices on them saying rather strange and unsettling things. I had quit doing EVP by this point, but I could tell by the quality and the nature of the voices on these voicemails, that it was most likely from the same group that had been harassing me for the previous few weeks.
Then one afternoon while I was at work, I received a phone call. The caller sounded like a young man who was enquiring about a job. There seemed to be nothing out of the ordinary or even remotely paranormal about this call, the thought did not even cross my mind initially. The voice was as regular sounding and as clear as any normal phone call. I informed the young sounding man on the phone that we were not hiring at this time and at this point, he started to act quite belligerent towards me. At this point I suspected that this was some kind of prank call, but the thought of it being anything paranormal had still not crossed my mind. Aside from the prank call nature of it, there was nothing out of the ordinary about this phone call. That changed when I recognized a young sounding female voice speak up in the background and say
“is that Brian?”
This voice…this voice I would recognize anywhere. This voice was my primary tormentor. I had been hearing her ever since I was still recording EVPs. She arrived at the same time the other negative voices began to appear on my recordings. Her voice was always the same in its distinctness and harassing tone, there was no mistaking it. I had heard her voice clear as day in the background. At that point I hung up the phone, a little shaken up.
During the next month (April, 2015) my situation exploded to an extreme and terrifying level. I was now hearing these tormenting voices on a constant 24/7 basis and at a much more extreme level. That same younger sounding female voice was still my primary tormentor, I began to refer to her as “#1” as she seemed to be taking the lead in torturing me, though I was also at that time hearing many other voices as well.
Once things got to this extreme level, I started receiving these phone calls or I should more accurately say prank calls from these menacing spirits all the time. I would say, looking back now, that I probably received these phone calls a few times a week for the first few months of this ordeal. These calls were not nearly as clear as that once call I had received back in March… the phony job enquiry call. With these calls, I would typically hear the phone ring, I would answer it and hear “#1’s” voice, very crackly and distorted, making derogatory comments towards me. One thing of particular note here, I always…always received these mysterious phone calls on the land line at my work. I never once received one of these direct phone calls on my cell phone, it was always my work phone.
These prank calls continued for many months. With the passage of time however, it seemed like the quality of the voice (which was always #1’s voice) seemed to become more distorted and less recognizable. Just like with many other aspects of my situation, it seems like once I was able to get a better handle on my emotions, a lot of the “shock & awe” activity seemed to fizzle out and fade away. I truly do get the impression, looking back now, that my fear and anxiety was feeding them and their ability to pull off these kinds of stunts. I’m glad to report now, that I haven’t experienced a single phone call incident in many months. I don’t even remember the last time that it occurred, it was such a while ago.
By not allowing these phone calls to shock me anymore in anyway caused them to cease I believe. At least this chapter of my ordeal seems to be closed, but I know I still have much work to do to more fully recover from these powerful experiences
November 12, 2016
I was out an about early this morning. I was doing a bit of side work, winterizing a swimming pool at a house along the bay, not too far from Atlantic City. It was a rather chilly morning. I had slept rather well the night before. Of course, there was some of the usual disturbances, but nothing too severe. The sleep-aid did its job rather quickly and efficiently. Things had actually seemed to improve during the previous few days. I could still hear the voices, but sometimes they’re so faint, so in the background, that I wonder if I’m really hearing them or if I’m just replaying in my mind the memory of hearing them. It seems like that’s the case sometimes, other times it seems like that’s not the case.
The voices were not particularly noticeable or troubling this morning. I was only hearing them in this half-recognition manner, so they weren’t much of a bother to me. My work this morning consisted of lowering the water level down in the swimming pool, exposing the return lines, and from there I used a strong air blower to blow air through the plumbing lines to clear them of water and then I plug them up so that no water gets back into these lines over the winter, when the temperatures could get below freezing. If enough water remained in these lines, then the possibility exists of the water in the lines freezing and cracking the pipes.
So, for some while, I had my air blower going, which makes a rather loud and steady noise. Over the noise of the air blower, the voices came. The voices came on strong. It was the usual voices that I always hear. They were speaking their usual non-sense, trying to be intimidating. It never really works on me anymore, so I really don’t know why they bother. Acting in this malicious way seems to be ingrained in this group I have following me around. I hate to rush to judgmental conclusions, but I’m really not rushing at all. I’ve been hearing some of these same voices for well over a year and a half now. I haven’t seen much change in their manner. I’ve seen more change in the intensity that I hear them. They still always seem to be judgmental and critical of me, so I don’t really feel that bad if I come to a few judgmental conclusions of my own.
When I heard them over the noise of the air blower though, I knew that I was really hearing them in real time. This was no mere memory of hearing them. I’m sure that the mind can play some powerful tricks like that. I’ve often figured that if the voices suddenly just all of a sudden went away one day, I’d probably still hear them for a while just in my memory. The voices can be so constant at times that this is one of the after effects for me. It’s almost comparable to a song being stuck in your head I suppose.
But there they were this morning, very clear and present. I didn’t let it interfere with my work though. In a sense, sometimes I hear them, but I don’t really listen. I don’t really take in and process the things that they are saying. I can often remain indifferent. It’s always the same kind of empty threat talk and over opinionated judgments. I didn’t ask for their opinions anyway so what does it matter. They are a part of the background now, but I can get along ok these days. Some night’s it’s still a fight for sleep, but all and all I often these days, take a moment and reflect upon how lucky I am to have made it through the worst of it, for the most part in one piece. I still have a constant feeling that I’m never truly alone (what bliss that would be for me), that there is always this presence around me. That’s something I hope I’ll learn to better deal with in time.
November 10, 2016
On some days, I feel like my mind is an open door, it’s hinges broken, through which these chattering and intrusive voices come and go as they please. Sometimes it seems like they are having some kind of gathering in my home. Sometimes it seems like I am surrounded by them. I often wonder why they spend so much of their time following me around constantly. They seem hell bent on driving me to some kind of breaking point. They know that they will not succeed, but they endeavor in this anyway.
In recent weeks, I’ve been experiencing a very high pitched ringing in my ears again. It’s strange, but on one occasion, I’ll hear this ringing in one of my ears, then on another occasion, I’ll hear it in my other ear. To the best of my recollection, I do not hear the ringing in both ears at the same time. If I listen attentively to this, within the ringing there are voices. This is by no means the only way that I hear these voices however. I still hear them in numerous ways like I always have. I still primarily hear them the loudest when I hear them coming in over a source of steady background noise. Then when I am in silence, I will often hear fainter, more whispery voices. But recently, when I’ve heard the voices, it is often accompanied by this ringing in one of my ears.
This ringing was something that I experienced in April of 2015, when my situation of hearing abusive and intrusive voices was at its peak. The presence of this ringing in my ears seemed to indicate the level at which I was hearing these voices, at least at this time. I first started hearing voices with just my ears in late February, 2015, while I was still engaged in recording for EVP. During the next month (March) the incidents of hearing these voices seemed to steadily escalate and by early April, I was hearing these voices at a very intense and very constant level.
During the first few weeks of April, I would often hear this same high pitched ringing in one of my ears, only back then, it was even stronger. I remember thinking to myself “this must be the sound of my mind shattering into a thousand pieces.” That’s exactly what it felt like…my mind shattering. Well after some time has passed, I wouldn’t say now that it’s shattered, but life is different now, I’m different, my world is different. There are voices in my world now, voices that come and go and I still haven’t figured out yet how much it’s possible to make myself not hear them. I deal with it each day, one day at a time. I try not to dwell too much on the future, nor on the past. That doesn’t do me any good.
I’ve made it this far. There’s still allot of life for me to live so I’m going to try and live it, voices be damned. I don’t think about or much care what they even say anymore. It’s usually just the same masquerade of deception, maybe with a new spin every once and awhile, but underneath it’s the same. I guess writing in this blog is like telling someone about it. Sometimes, I guess I feel the need to tell someone. There aren’t many I can tell. Hardly anyone believes me. This isn’t something that’s really understood yet so how can I expect them to understand.
Maybe I’m speaking to no one here, but that’s ok, I’m just speaking about it and sometimes that helps me. Maybe someday someone will read this, someone that’s going through something similar. I truly hope no one has to, but if no one believes them either, at least they’ll know that they are not alone.
Back in the winter of 2015, a few weeks into my personal experimenting with EVP, I began to experiment with various “carrier sounds,” or I would use steady sources of noise such as the white noise of a television, a running fan, or a running shower, to create a steady source of background noise so that I could capture these voices that I was hearing on my recordings even louder. I had some success with this. There were even a few occasions where I heard these voices in real time, literally at the time that I was recording. At the time, I had no idea about the living nightmare that my experience with EVP would descend into, but looking back now, I wish that I had gotten out right then and there.
To this day, I still hear these intrusive voices coming in over sources of steady background noise, only now it is even stronger and on a daily basis. Back in the Spring of 2015, when my situation was at its worse, it was as if any sound that I heard was being mutated and distorted into these menacing voices. All of my descriptions with mere words will fall short of the mark here, it was truly an unsettling experience.
Aside from the few incidents that I had of hearing these voices with just my ears while I was experimenting with carrier sounds, my nightmare truly began one day in late February (2015) when I heard menacing voices coming in very loud and clear over the noise of a running fan at my work. This time, I heard them louder and clearer and more continuously than any other previous incident.
In the weeks that followed, I began to experience ever increasing incidents of hearing these voices coming in over various background noises. I remember incidents of hearing them over the noise of my stereo, my television, my shower, my stove as I boiled water… if anything generated a steady noise, I began to hear these voices emerging from it. I am happy to report that now, at this point, this strange phenomenon has weakened a significant degree. I no longer hear voices emerging out of just about any steady background noise. Even though I do still hear these voices in this manner on a daily basis, now it seems that they can only effectively carry their voices over with allot of volume and clarity if the background noise is stronger. This is true for the most part. Though things often shift back and forth with this situation. But it does seem like this mysterious phenomenon of hearing the voices in this way is indeed weakening with time.