Dec. 11, 2016 – Step by Step

Step by Step

Sunday, Dec. 11, 2016 

For most normal folks, drinking means conviviality, companionship and colorful imagination. It means release from care, boredom and worry. It is joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good. But not so with us in those last days of heavy drinking. The old pleasures were gone. They were but memories. Never could we recapture the great moments of the past. There was an insistent yearning to enjoy life as we once did and a heartbreaking obsession that some new miracle of control would enable us to do it. There was always one more attempt – and one more failure.” – Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition, 1976, Ch 11 (“A Vision for You”), p 151. 

Todaydrinking to deal with emotions and people I could not handle, I ask if I ever found “release from care, boredom and worry” or a “joyous intimacy with friends and a feeling that life is good?”  No, I didn’t. Alcohol was never a social luxury for me. Instead, it was a way to oblivion so that I didn’t have to deal with what I couldn’t or didn’t want to face. “…(T)he great moments of the past?” Mine overwhelmed any good ones. With that memory, then, why do I want to reclaim any moments of my drinking past? I don’t. The program has given me the ammunition to deal with and face what I once could not. I don’t need alcohol now, and I don’t want it. In sobriety, I’m making better memories. And our common journey continues. Step by step. – Chris M., 2016

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