He loves me more than he used to. I know I love him more than I used to. I’m guessing this is just part of the process of marriage. It’s nice. To grow together. To have not thrown in the towel though I was tempted to. I’m sure he was too. I know we are far from “out of the woods” – we have a lot of child raising years yet to come that will challenge our relationship. Maybe “the woods” is where we are supposed to be. In other words it is a continuous journey “through” not “out of”. Yes, I think that’s it. Indeed it feels so good to have come this far “through” together. We still annoy the crap out of each other from time to time but that’s normal. It all balances out.
Yesterday he looked at me and said “you are so beautiful” with so much sincerity. I think that’s the first time he’s ever said that to me. It felt good to hear it from him. I don’t need to hear it – but oh I liked hearing it – especially from him.
Last night was the longest night of the year. Today is the shortest day. The Winter Solstice. I feel drawn by my Pagan ancestors to light a bonfire and engage in some other ancient practice to mark the beginning of winter and the return of daylight. But more than likely I will just try to steal a quiet moment to myself to meditate on it.