Poetry + Japanese

Sooooo I’m here again (although actually I’m always here. Lurking. Ghosting. In the shadows. Silently reading every single one of these public entries and internally Judging All Of You™ without commenting) and it’s time for me to post a semi-coherent rant about part of my Teenaged Aesthetic that no one asked for much less cares about. Here we go. *Ahem.*

I borrowed an anthology of poetry from the tiny library outside my school yesterday, after I exited the building with my best friend following my victory against The Final Boss Final: AP English III. Jk it was actually a spectacular defeat against TFBF because I fucked up the essay portion and I lost my point somewhere between the lines of my hurried-hurried handwriting. But I still went to the library and I borrowed the anthology, which is filled with the poetry of multiple American Poets Laureate–and another book about the basics of Japanese, which I’m hoping to sort-of learn during the break.

I like poetry and emotional song lyrics and if that doesn’t tell you what kind of teenager I am I don’t know what will, but anyway, I have to read more poetry if I want to get any better at it which is one of my sole purposes in life because writing. Gah, the FEELS I get from reading good writing. It’s the same feeling I get when I see someone who has gorgeous handwriting. It’s envy, but not in a negative, angry, despairing way–it’s the sort of “challenge accepted” envy that makes me want to run a marathon and work hard and make life my bitch.

I don’t write well but I want to, so I’m going to try to make it happen. After several hours of looking at various positive Tumblr posts, I think I’m feeling positive and dizzy enough to get off the Internet and actually go better myself now.

So have a good day and stay chill like I am right now because I’m DONE with everything and yes I am always Done™ internally with everything but right now I mean with school and Learning. Actually wait no. I have to study for the SAT which is in exactly one month. Oh yeah. So there’s that but I’ll THINK ABOUT THAT LATER so BYE FOR NOW.

2 thoughts on “Poetry + Japanese”

  1. Easy with the words you want to write awesome start by not using “fucked” or “bitch” or other words like this. Try to portray you emotions using good words.

  2. I almost wrote about you in my entry today. I was writing about my life struggles I’m going through, and also that I shouldn’t complain because X (X is another person in this site) has this problem to deal with.

    I was about to say something like “Another person is Pretty In Black who is dealing with…” and I couldn’t think of anything, so I just left you out 😛

Leave a Comment: