I entered 2017 with just over 5 weeks sober!
If you asked me two months ago if I could manage a week without a drink I would of laughed in your face! Alcohol was my best friend, our break up was completely out of the blue.
Giving up alcohol has not been as hard as I thought. I would be lying if I said it was a breeze, there are times when I would love to chuck back one lovely refreshing Gin and Tonic after another.
A lot of people think I must have amazing will power. That’s not true. If my willpower was that great I wouldn’t have to give up alcohol. I would be able to drink in a sophisticated manner. Savouring a glass or two of wine instead of dimolishing two bottles to myself.
I have done a lot of sole searching, self reflecting and decided that I owe it to myself to begin to start caring for myself. I made the deduction to stop fighting myself, to stop trying to destroy who I am. If I want a wholesome life I must work on my flaws instead of abusing myself.
In the culture I have been brought up in alcohol is accociated with fun. People think I’m crazy when I inform them of my desicion of going t total. “but what else is there to do” they ask in bewilderment as though I may possess the secret magical answer. That is going to be the foundation of my year of 2017 to find happiness and enjoyment which lives outside the influence of alcohol.
I may sound as though I am turning into a hippy, but if it means I will become at peace with myself then I’m all for becoming a peace making hippy. I have already signed ur to do a course in meditation, I want to volunteer to help the homeless I also need to find an exercise class which I will enjoy and stick to.
I want to be the best me that I can possibly be.