January 2, 2017
Today was better … I had a wonderful day with my husband. We got to hangout, go out to lunch and spend a date day. This hasn’t happened for a while. He’s been doing so good, with everything going on in my life sickness and such he’s been so supportive. My baseline is irritability … I’m snippy, easily frustrated and emotional. He has been my rock that I sometimes take forgratted. My last entry made him sound awful. As a wrap up he did come back spend time and spent time with me. We played games and went to bed happier than when I wrote my entry.
I just can’t seem to handle the emotional path I’m on. I’m just irritable all the time. Now as someone who works in psych, with all the stress, recent loss, etc my opinion can me an on set of depression. No I don’t want to call it that but it could be. I cry multiple times a day but I feel like I’m content sometimes. Semi functional depression? I go to work, clean just barely feel productive thru the day.
I don’t know I choose not to label myself. I can’t label myself.
What is going on with me, I can’t even think. I have no thought process right now. I cont to feel scattered and with nothing to tell or say but I feel so much. I guess just enjoy that I had a good day today.