I haven’t written in some time, not because I was busy. I’ve just been eating a lot. The day before yesterday was great – I spoke with a guy that I like, I did my makeup well, I saw my psychologist and I felt pretty and confident. Yesterday was not that good (but it wasn’t, like, bad). I saw my friend after a long time. I ate too much. I’ve gained about 15 kg in the last year and a half. I’m a very confident person. I feel guilty though (I’m noz anorexic or obese). I used to have a flat tummy and my thighs used to be smaller. Also, my face used to look slimmer. 

Anyways, yesterday I went to sleep in makeup. I really dont want today to be a terrible day.

5 thoughts on “1/4/2017”

  1. I am having a battle with food, too. I used to be 95 lbs. (adult weight). I am up to 133 lbs. It’s hard for me to admit that, but this is the place for honesty, this website. I also sleep with makeup on because I am tired but I know it is bad for the complexion. You sound beautiful, a nice weight and confidence. Try just not to eat to where your stomach feels full.
    Sorry that is not good English—it’s 4:00 a.m. and I couldn’t sleep, but I’m too sleepy to write coherently. Be happy with your beautiful self. God bless you.

  2. im 16, and i understand where youre coming from, i suffered from anorexia when i was 12-15, it takes time to be okay with your body. stay strong. just wanted to let you know you werent alone

  3. @cely You’re so brave for overcoming anorexia! I have a friend who’s been battling with it for about three years. It can really be tough, but you just have to be persistent. I dont genuinely have a problem with my body, it’s just lately that I started to eat without control. Stay strong!

  4. @savedbygrace thank you for all the confidence and the advice. Your English is alright. I wish you all the best!

  5. Well, it’s good that it doesn’t bother you. Maybe you shouldn’t let your husband’s opinions get to you

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