Fat.

That’s what I feel right now. A little, fat pig. I don’t think I need to lose weight, really, but I always eat so much and then feel guilty afterwards. Anyone ever get that? My skin is breaking out. I’m slipping back into my “sadness phase”. I’m so… not right. I have no curves so,I’m like poker straight and my school uniform makes me look like I’m super fat. So, I don’t really need to lose weight, I’m average, but I’m going to watch what I eat and I’m going to wash my face every day and I’m going to wear skirts again to look better. And I’m going to try and be prettier and I’m going to get more confidence and I’m going to be happier and I’m going to try harder and I’m going to practise more and I’m going to be perfect. Except I’m not. Because I never am. I feel unhappy and unloved even though I know I have this family that loves me very much and friends that care very much about me. I just feel like somebody used me earlier. 

3 thoughts on “Fat.”

  1. I know what you’re going through and felt those exact emotions. It is good that you realize that you don’t have to lose weight. As far as your breakouts are concerned it is also important that you not only wash your face but your hands too since you may be rubbing your face without thinking about it causing your face to break out. Also make sure to wash your pillow case, I recently learned that it can be a big reason behind breakouts. A good way to help boost confidence is to find an aspect that you like about yourself even if it’s something small, the way I was able to do it was that I figured out I really liked my eyes and my writing skills. I focused on those and was able to slowly build myself up in my mind. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope you are able to feel better. It is good you know your family is there and does love you even though it is hard to feel it sometime. I hope things get better for you and you are able to pass this sad phase you are in.

  2. Just do your best Emzygirl.

    Hey now, you’re an all star, get your game on, go play.
    Hey now, you’re a rock star, get your show on, get paid.
    All that glitters is gold. Only shooting stars break the mold.

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