Lost soul

Here we go. First time writing. I need to get something off my chest. I need to apologize to all who entered my life after her. All the woman’s hearts I have broken just because they weren’t her. I tried really hard to fix myself. But something inside of me won’t let me change. It’s been 8 months since I’ve left her. She gave me the exact feeling I now know as love, but she is also the reason I can not. This pain inside of my heart is unreal. Ever think that 2 people were meant for each other and that’s how it’s supposed to be? I forever hold this view of woman as it’s her or it’s not. No matter how hard they try I can’t let them close just because they aren’t Kim. Kim is love to me. These other woman aren’t Kim. Why can’t I change the way I look at them. Is my soul so lost that it can’t let go of a love we once cherished?

3 thoughts on “Lost soul”

  1. Getting over someone is hard. It can take a long time and sometimes you never fully get over them. It’s good you realize that the other women didn’t do anything other than just not be her. I hope with time you are able to move on and live happily and become involved with someone else but you may need to give yourslef time alone before trying to move on.

  2. You didn’t really say what broke you and Kim up —or else I missed it. Is there a reason you cant get back together?

  3. Thank you Gerch. Savedbygrace I didn’t specify in my writing. But me and Kim broke up because she doesn’t want to get married or have children. I was with her for 5 years. I proposed to her and she said yes. The thing is she never wanted to take the next steps. I think the hardest part for me is when I envision my future it always had her in it. I planned the rest of my life to have her by my side. With her I was invincible. I felt like there was nothing I couldn’t do because just her love made me feel so empowered. I feel like my soul is in the darkest place imaginable. I can’t seem to cope with this. I feel like not only have I lost her but I have lost myself. For 8 months I’ve tried to find which path I must travel, and for 8 months I have dreamt of her by my side. My dreams are the only place I can be with her

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