I fly to New York tomorrow. I don’t have anything to do there except get my keys on Sunday morning at 10AM. I think I will go walk around my neighborhood after I get my keys Sunday. I will find a place to eat, go to TJ Maxx, Home Goods, that 2nd hand store, maybe get my nails done. I want to start getting to know the area. On Saturday, I think I will go to the Met. They have guided tours with different focuses. I am going to work on my intellectual self this year and that would be a good start. With the craziness at my school, and living like a hobo, I have been so stressed lately. I actually went to the gas station yesterday and bought 2 king size KitKats. That is my drug of choice right now. I know it’s not the best thing to put in my body, but it’s better than actual drugs or alcohol.
Just Keep Swimming
I am a 48 year old adult child of an alcoholic. My childhood could have been a Lifetime movie. I am dealing with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression as a result. I am working on gaining an understanding as to what this means and learning how to be okay with myself. Some days, just killing myself and being done with it seems like the most sensible option. On those days, I keep telling myself, "just keep breathing in and out, that's enough for today."