01/15/2017 22:01 Share

I’m very concerned with my inability to just share my feelings. I can on here when I’m writing because no one really knows me but with my friends it’s almost impossible. This is really weighing on my mind become last night, well yesterday evening I started drinking at around 18:00 (6:00pm) and was asleep by 22:00 (10:00pm) when he got home. I fell asleep again and didn’t get up till 13:00 (1:00pm) today.
“Get up.” He called to me this morning. I groaned and hid my face.
“Come on it’s one o’clock. Are you okay?” He asked.
I set up and rubbed my eyes. “I was just tired, I drank a little and then went to sleep.” He looked at me and in this weird way that he does when he can tell that I’m lying. It’s a weird sort of peircing stare that makes me feel like he’s looking right at my soul. Normally I can’t lie after that look but I did today.
“You don’t just sleep for 14 hours, that’s not going to sleep that’s passing out.” He commented.
“I just drank a little more than I thought I lied and looking away. He shrugged and said “okay just let me know if everything is okay.” I lied and said I was okay when really I’m feeling bad and all I want to do is sleep, cry or drink. Hopefully I will get to go back to work soon and thus will have something to keep me distracted. I don’t know I just have to have something to keep my mind busy so that I feel better. Hopefully…

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