I had no idea what I was in for…

I was so discouraged when I wrote “The Verdict”. Rightfully so, I felt defeated. But if I thought I was about to break down then… Well, I should really be laying down my armor now. Since I wrote that, my surgeons office called to say they won’t appeal my surgery a second time. The following day I received a call from the lawyer reviewing my long term disability case. He politely tells me he isn’t willing to take my case. And with only a few months left to write my appeal… I guess it’s up to me. If that isn’t enough, I am taking my emotional support dog to the vet for a lump that we originally thought was swelling from when she slipped and fell getting out of the car one day. Well it’s been two months now and it hasn’t budged. This is the dog that has slept cuddled up next to me for the last 3 years. This is the dog that goes EVERYWHERE with me. The dog who has eased my Mom’s heartache when she lost her dog and who sat on the feet of my bank teller as she told me she had just lost her dog. This is the Pitbull that my 3 year old niece hugs and sleeps with when she visits and the dog whom her 14 year old sister sleeps on when she visits or when we’re on car rides. She is the dog that changes peoples minds about this breed every single day. She is my child and my best friend… Without her, I’m not sure I would’ve worked so hard to come home from the hospital. She was rescued from a fighting ring, used as a bait dog when she was a puppy. Once rescued, she was adopted by one of my residents. A short time later, she died and her family was sending her straight to the pound. My response? “Well, what if I take her!?” All the while thinking to myself “What the heck am I going to do with a dog?” And yet, here we are and I can’t imagine life without her. So here I am, hoping and praying that something good comes of this week and the vet tells me it is some sort of benign growth or fatty tissue or that whatever it is, it is no big deal and she is happy and healthy and there is no need to worry! Because the honest truth is, I fight for her. I fight this battle because I am her person and she needs me. And without her, this home will be nothing more than an empty house. And I will be more alone than ever… 


2 thoughts on “I had no idea what I was in for…”

  1. I pray that your beloved dog will have something benign that doesn’t even require surgery. God bless this pit bull and comfort the own. Lord, heal the dog even before it goes to see the Vet. He is so important to his owner. Thank you, Jesus, for your healing power. And help the owner with her legal battles.

  2. Thank you both for the kind words and positive thoughts. We sent cells to the lab to be tested and will know in a few days.

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